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milotic17

Suckage

Mar 08, 2010 13:03

Well, I’ve officially been rejected from UNH. I kind of knew it was coming based on what some people had said on the MFA blog, but it’s still a disappointment. Well, so much for going to a full-residency program and having my own little apartment. I kind of knew it wouldn’t happen anyway; I wanted it too badly and it would have been too good to be ( Read more... )

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unico_love March 8 2010, 19:21:25 UTC

I know you keep thinking you can't really be 120lbs, but since your view of yourself is so distorted, I imagine the doctor was telling you the truth. I know for me, I think I look about 180lbs, even though last time I was weighed I weighed 94lbs. I assumed I'd weigh in at 103lbs. Whenever I see relatively slim girls (not even skinny ones, but healthy looking girls) I always think I'm bigger than them, and often my boyfriend has said I look a bit thinner than them or we at least look similar in size. Sometimes they have thinner legs, but a bigger chest/upper body:P That doesn't always make me feel the best, even though I don't want a bigger chest. I really think your thoughts are distorted about how you look now, even though I don't actually know for a fact what you look like now ( ... )

milotic17 March 8 2010, 21:25:36 UTC

You don't have to apologize for the long comment. It was very nice. :)

Anyway, I know you're right about having a distorted view of my body. I just find it hard to believe that I've lost weight since it's been so long since I've been able to. It almost seems, I don't know, too good to be true.

Actually, I've only gotten into one grad school. Thanks for saying that you like my writing. That means a lot to me. :)

unico_love March 8 2010, 21:40:45 UTC

Oh, I thought you also got into Sarah Lawrence. Maybe that was one you hadn't heard from yet? I get confused. But congratulations, all the same!:)

milotic17 March 8 2010, 22:38:57 UTC

Yup, Sarah Lawrence is one I'm waiting to hear from.

Thanks. :)

raspel March 9 2010, 03:18:55 UTC

sorry about UNH hon. i am glad you are taking it well. these programs are ridiculously competitive ( ... )

milotic17 March 10 2010, 00:10:56 UTC

I'm really surprised by how well I'm taking all of the rejections. If something like this had happened years ago I would have been a wreck. I keep thinking back to when I was waitlisted at colleges (because the stupid guidance department at my high school messed something up--long story) and I just remember crying and crying and being so upset. That hadn't been the case at all this time around, and I haven't taken it terribly personally either (i.e. "I must be totally inept/stupid/a terrible person and no one likes me and I need to cut/starve/lose weight"), although it's hard not to take it somewhat personally, because it's my writing and it's personal, but, while I'm struggling with thoughts of "I must be a bad writer," I haven't turned those thoughts into "I must be a bad person." I guess my skin is just thicker than it used to be ( ... )

raspel March 10 2010, 05:11:08 UTC

it's really good you haven't let this get to you. i wonder if it feels easier at the moment 'cause, well, you're about to get your first college degree so you already have a good amount of education under your belt. and this MA you're going after can be done at any point in your life. you could end up at UNH next year for all you know ( ... )

milotic17 March 11 2010, 01:12:20 UTC

I'll look into the filtering options on Facebook. Thanks for the advice! :)