Disaster

[milotic17]

I’m such a disaster right now. I can’t stop crying. Yes, that’s right, I’m actually crying, and at school of all places, too. (I don’t think I’ve ever cried at Mount Holyoke before.) I just can’t deal with these thoughts and feelings anymore. No, I’m not going to kill myself (although I am feeling damn near suicidal right now), but the thoughts are

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[juno_chan]

*HUGS* Hang in there

[milotic17]

Thank you so much for your support; it means a lot to me.

I still feel a little bad about emailing my therapist. I don't know why. It's like I have this fear that she won't want to see me anymore or something, which I know is utterly ridiculous. I'm still waiting for her to reply, so we'll see what she says.

Yeah, I guess I know deep down that my parents will never disown me. (If they were going to they probably would have done so already...LOL). I actually told my mother about the dream yesterday, and at first she had a good laugh about it (mainly because of the snake tamer part), but then she turned all serious and said she would never do that.

Hmm, I'll have to look up those books; they might be interesting. I like that quote.

Are you getting excited for graduation? (I think you're graduating, right? I'm pretty sure you're in the same year of school as I am.) Any ideas about what you'll do afterwards?

Again, thank you so much! <3

[browncoatrebel]

I believe it gets better.

[milotic17]

Thanks. I hope so. <3