Agitation

[milotic17]

I’m sorry I haven’t updated in, well, forever. Things haven’t been great. I feel especially bad because I know some of the people on my FL have been struggling, and I haven’t been the least bit supportive. I don’t think I’ve commented on a single journal entry of anyone’s in a week or more. I will try to be a better friend.

Anyway, I really thought

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[unico_love]

Do you also have anxiety in addition to depression? If you get anxiety attacks occasionally maybe a medication aimed at anxiety might help with that. I hate Zyprexa and wish I could go off it, but it's the best medication I've ever been on (out of many) at controlling my bipolar. For me it just greatly increases my appetite and I then eat tons so just taking a medication that suppresses appetite allows me to keep that in-check. Though if I tried to drop to an anorexic weight I'd be taken off the appetite suppressing medication (Ritalin LA, right now).

I love the Sailor Moon art books! I own one that I bought many years ago at Disney World. I have always wanted more, but like you said, they are usually pretty expensive:(

I hope your therapist helps and you start feeling better soon!

[milotic17]

I do have anxiety. It used to be really, really bad (mainly in high school), but it seemed to have gotten better. Maybe the the recent agitation is stemming from anxiety, though. I will ask my psychiatrist about it.

Oh, which art book do you have? You must have gotten it at Epcot, right?

Thanks. <3

[unico_love]

Yes, Epcot:-) I don't know the number... It has a V in the corner by a crescent moon... It has a picture of Sailor Moon with wings and yellow flowers to the left.

[milotic17]

Oh, wow, that's the fifth art book (the "V" is the Roman numeral for five); it's one of the rarest ones (as far as I can tell, anyway), so you defintiely lucked out! :)

[browncoatrebel]

Changing meds is a pain in the ass. Here's hoping you can find a solution that works for you.

And I totally hear you on feeling hurt that your friends didn't congratulate you. That's hurtful, and I'm sorry it happened.

[milotic17]

Yes, changing meds is always horrible, although I've never had nearly as many problems in the past as I have each time I've come off the Abilify.

Thanks for your support. <3

[raspel]

i hope this is all normal for going off abilify and that it settles down soon. it's not the same, but after going off zoloft, i was a wreck for a month until i felt better again. i bet you're so hungry because your metabolism is rebounding. it was clearly very low from the abilify and now that's out of your system so your body's probably waking up and going, "holy shit... we need food!" i hope you'll soon feel comfortable eating more, because now that your metabolism is better, you can eat a LOT more than you have and not have to worry about random weight gain

[milotic17]

I hope this is all normal, too. Actually, today was a horrible day; my depression was in full-force. I will try to update about it tomorrow.

I've come to the conclusion that what I've been feeling isn't hunger, but some kind of nausea. (There are many reasons for this, which I will try to explain when I update tomorrow.) I think I've starved myself to the point of feeling sick and nauseaous for so long that I've come to confuse the two. I don't think what's going on is hunger, though, which is kind of a relief. It's some kind of "sick to my stomach" feeling, maybe related to the reflux (?). I feel like I have a big gas bubble in my stomach or something and it's pressing on my throat, LOL. Have you ever experienced that? (I may not be describing it well.)

Unfortunately, I got my dates messed up and therapy is tomorrow and wasn't today.

Thanks for your support.

*hugs*