It's been forever since I've last posted.
I can't even begin to remember what's happened since December.

lots. lots. and lots.

trying to graduate.

 - my dad got drunk last night and hasn't woken up. so he missed christmas and his truck is still at his house.
- my uncle burt called my dad "AIDS ridden" and I didn't find it funny and I told him off.
- my grandpa basically ignored me all day today, and only said hi when i walked in
- my cousins are missing

Merry Fucking Christmas.

 
the thing is...even if you tell me that you love me, i won't feel it. i don't even feel it when my own mother, who i know loves me dearly, tells me that she loves me. it's the depression. the chemical imbalance. i've lived with it since i was 12. it started when my parents split. then i started not caring. i didn't care whether i did my school ( Read more... )

 "...I think I might have a chance with her She's been really cool towards me. Which is new. Because that never happens."

Shut uppppp. Stop talking about someone I don't care about. I said that I don't know her. Soooooo fuck you.

Dick.

I'm glad to say, that I can do without you. I can do without your petty words, and your blatant disregard for anything I do for you. The fact that I'm easily tossed aside, without you noticing, is sickening. My time is longer for you. I've wasted hours thinking about you. I've wasted days wondering when I would see you. I've wasted kisses on you. I ( Read more... )

Here we go, again.
I'm starting over.
No more worries about boys.
No more worries about other people.
I've decided to care about making myself happy before anyone else.
Because, other people take advantage of me.
And...it's over.

:)

Starting now, I'm going to be happy.

I just brought out a lot to myself. I'm abandoned. I'm extremely alone. To the point that I don't want to deal with it anymore. With anything; feelings, people...anything. I can't count on you. I can't count on me. The only thing I can count on is the sun rising and falling. And sometimes that doesn't even work properly. I have no one to talk to. ( Read more... )

I sat and thought about what's going on in my life, and why I don't think it's right ( Read more... )

I'm sure no one reads mine journal.
Maybe I'll stick with Myspace instead.
I read other people's, but I haven't gotten a comment in a long time.
So I have no idea if anyone reads.

Bye LiveJournal :)

I'm a senior! I'm a senior! I'm a senior, yes I am!

It's time to be an upperclassman, it's time to rule, it's time to confuse tiny freshmen.