i really can't believe all this stuff about the hurricane. it's so weird because i've been there, you know? i see the footage and i recognize the places ( Read more... )

so...i go here, you know? except i still feel kind of like i'm intruding in other people's schools. like i have to keep walking around very slyly so no one knows i'm faking it all. but, honestly, i've faked a lot of things in my life so what's the difference now ( Read more... )

maybe my soul is hiding in my bowels like tereza's does in "unbearable lightness of being" and maybe that's why i can't poop.

last night was fun i love mehigh (which is funny b/c it's mike's real name haha but then that's sad because mike used to be someone i loved talking to but now we don't so hes like a rock in the collection ( Read more... )

mostly i hate him for never really feeling guilty. and never apologizing. mostly just for the lack of a self-inflicted guilt trip. why can't everyone be as emotionally unhealthy as i am? god ( Read more... )

hey hey, all. my horoscope was good today. it talked about how it's been great just having a fun time but it's time to give the gray matter in my brain something substantive to linger on. i think that's true. "the waking life" came at a perfect time; i needed to think more ( Read more... )

i've been neglecting updating. not really sure why...it's not like i have so much to fill my days or anything. besides work.
anyway, i don't think now is quite the time to update.

maybe later, though.

"it's hot. reeeeeeeeeeeal hot. africa hot ( Read more... )

well it still feels like the ground beneath me is swaying, but i'm finally home. i say finally because, near the end of the trip, part of me couldn't be more ready to leave. mostly my self-image. i ate so much on this trip i know i've gained all the weight i tried to lose since school ended; that's upsetting. my self-image also gets very ( Read more... )

i hate livejournal ( Read more... )