Random Thoughts
I have had brillo pad hair this week - bushy and wiry. I really need a haircut. It has expanded to twice its normal size. I think I'm pretty sure I'm not going to go short while pregnant - my hair has increased so much in volume that I'm sure it will be a completely different head of hair once it starts to fall out post-partum. I think I will go for the short cut then.
I am working on controlling my stress level. It is all about money. Isn't it always? Anyway, I'm just feeling like we'll never get ahead. I'm worried about affording all the things we still need. I'm trying to be frugal, but part of me wants to buy, buy, buy like if I get all the right THINGS, then everything will work out. I need to just slow down and we can get stuff as we need it. So what if I don't have a nursing stool? Maybe I won't need it, and if I decide I do, we can get it then.
But then I'm worried - I'll be on disability and only get about 60% of my salary when the baby is born, so what if we can't afford to get things then?
So I alternate between worrying about the little things that are piling up ($25 here, $50 there kind of things) and then the big things: the medical bills (20% not covered by insurance), needing a car in April (our lease is up on the Honda), desperately wanting to buy a house (and the concern that the landlord will sell it out from under us).
I knew it would be tight, but I think the nesting urge is making me not deal with it well. Or maybe I am dealing with it well - I'm planning and budgeting, which is good, right? But I wish it didn't cause such stress!
Good thoughts:
-Once the Honda lease is up, and we've paid off that damn tax bill (both will happen in April), we'll have an extra $450/month. That will help A LOT.
-We're going to finance the residual on the Honda, and because the mileage is so low, we will turn around and sell it and make a profit of at least a few thousand dollars. We can use that to buy another car if we want.
-We can get by with a CHEAP car, and are actually going to try one car for awhile - at least until the weather gets bad. But only having one car for six months or so will save us a ton of money.
I am working on controlling my stress level. It is all about money. Isn't it always? Anyway, I'm just feeling like we'll never get ahead. I'm worried about affording all the things we still need. I'm trying to be frugal, but part of me wants to buy, buy, buy like if I get all the right THINGS, then everything will work out. I need to just slow down and we can get stuff as we need it. So what if I don't have a nursing stool? Maybe I won't need it, and if I decide I do, we can get it then.
But then I'm worried - I'll be on disability and only get about 60% of my salary when the baby is born, so what if we can't afford to get things then?
So I alternate between worrying about the little things that are piling up ($25 here, $50 there kind of things) and then the big things: the medical bills (20% not covered by insurance), needing a car in April (our lease is up on the Honda), desperately wanting to buy a house (and the concern that the landlord will sell it out from under us).
I knew it would be tight, but I think the nesting urge is making me not deal with it well. Or maybe I am dealing with it well - I'm planning and budgeting, which is good, right? But I wish it didn't cause such stress!
Good thoughts:
-Once the Honda lease is up, and we've paid off that damn tax bill (both will happen in April), we'll have an extra $450/month. That will help A LOT.
-We're going to finance the residual on the Honda, and because the mileage is so low, we will turn around and sell it and make a profit of at least a few thousand dollars. We can use that to buy another car if we want.
-We can get by with a CHEAP car, and are actually going to try one car for awhile - at least until the weather gets bad. But only having one car for six months or so will save us a ton of money.