i like my morning ritual of getting here early, buying a 20 oz wawa chai/cappucino and smoking a cig in the sun. next to blooming daffodils today. so nice and calming.

its sucks that our friendship is over ( Read more... )

some of this shit with jeff reminds me of a quote from a modern dance workshop on racism i saw last month.

(switch the point of view)

"when i have my foot on your neck, you cant move. but neither can i."

i just noticed how many people responded to my entry when i was popping about jeff. and there is a long list of young women in a certain suburb of philly who want to kill him or beat him up. thanks guys!

i did all i could do. more so. but i dont take shit from anyone. especially public humiiation shit. uhh..no ( Read more... )

so i'm going for a walk ( Read more... )

fuckit. jesus christ on a cactus. on a plain. under the marmelade skies. note, i didnt say blood red skies ( Read more... )

so which should i add to my body: a green cactus potted in a teracotta pot or the word "coke" which has a trifold meaning to me in a scratchy font?

i woke up shaking, crying, and nauseated last night. then i took some meds, put on classical music. went back to sleep and dreamt about dead baby fetuses in an underwater catacomb in nyc ( Read more... )

so tired. so drunk. so dont want to leave in 6 hours. oh the lack of sobritey!

i love jeff so much. not in a romantic way. but he's a dear friend. and i'm sorry its passed out right now wand was about to throw up before he went to bed....passsing out. that soungs good.