so i seem to have managed more friends to not want to invite me out nor hang out with me anymore because they are unsure of which jen they may get ( Read more... )

Seems like the only person I've been hanging out with lately is my therapist. I'm so tired. I can't shut my head up. I can't quit playing the same songs over and over again. I can't stop thinking about him ( Read more... )

so...woke around 10:00 a.m......got ready..met friends : vanessa & sam up at Angels for breakfast. hung around. at noon headed up to the sky diving place in palatka. filled paperwork out, would be a couple hours till our jump. i went home ate lunch. called a guy i've been hanging with. met his...supposed ex...but she said girlfriend up at the ( Read more... )

I can't be mean jen.
It didn't last long. I'm just moody happy crazy hyper jen.
could be the 2 mountain dews i had this morning...

i have given it some thought, and i've decided i'm going to become a fuck you bitch. fuck it. i'm tired of emotion, tired of getting hurt.
so...i'm just going to be a cynical bitch from here on out.
that wall is going back up. if i fuck...it's just going to be a fuck.
not going to give a damn towards anyone else.
think it will be a lot easier this

How many times can one person break your heart? Or is it the same break just a continuation? Or is it tiny breaks after the initial first break ( Read more... )

So, I have a doctor's appt today. Guess i'm going to see about switching meds. I don't think the stuff i'm on is working quite as good anymore. I hate being dependent, and I hate taking the shit, but I do better when i'm on something and it's working. Not that i'm still not moody as hell, but it's a bit more stable ( Read more... )

i originally had gone to bed at around 10:12 pm. Couldn't sleep, kept thinking of my Granny, which is really the first time I have...i mean in that sense that she isn't here anymore. So...I just kept thinking of memories, not crying or anything...just wanted to find pictures ( Read more... )

working ( Read more... )

so, i've been working 7pm-7am shifts since this past Friday ( Read more... )