the easy lie of absolutely no regrets

[minderz]

I am so incredibly mad, then so incredibly sad. I feel guilty, then I try to remember that I did what I could at the time. I go back and look at pictures and read old journal entries and it was written all over him. It's just so awful. For his family and friends, I send my love... because I know how hard they tried and how much they loved

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[dayoppermom]

It is weird that Dad and I were talking about him last week. I said
exactly the same thing. "I wonder if Minderz could have changed him." Because I did like him so much. He could be charming when he wanted to and he did charm me. And he was so much fun to talk to. And so intelligent. And had such exquisite manners. But that was on his good days.
And the truth is, you really can't change people. You tried your best to help him. That's what daddy and I decided on our talk last week. And that was before...
I too am so sad. I ache for his parents, his poor mother.
And now I will worry about you. If you need to talk, please call.

[sinisterbubbles]

My sentiments exactly.

:(

-Shari

[minderz]

Hey Shari-

It really sucks. I thought of you a few times this week. How are you doing?

[sinisterbubbles]

I'm sad, and angry, and disappointed, and regretful, and just plain miserable. How are you holding up?

[minderz]

Yah... these waves of different emotions hit me whenever I think about it. One minute I'll be so angry, then so sad. Then I'll remember a funny thing we did together and it will make me smile. Then I feel guilty for not reaching out more.

Keith and I are planning on going to the memorial on Saturday. Are you going?