Also.. here's a mindfuck: I'm this close to agreeing with Daddy. Read on.

[mindlgrrl]

I think there must be a series of light switches being turned on in my life right now and for the past few months. And whether I like it or not, Daddy flipped one of the switches last night…. The one regarding finding a long-term job with income and growth potential. I don’t want to be like everybody else or do what everybody else wants me to do

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[la_luna]

You really afraid of "selling out" or coopting yourself, or are you afraid to fail? I hear you trying to talk yourself out of it. Why? Do you have a secret Plan B lined up somewhere that you are just waiting for the perfect moment to execute?

I say why not. If nothing else, it'd be good for your self concept to finish something you start and to set your feet solidly on a path, any path.

I never thought I'd say it, either, but maybe your daddy has something on this one.

[mindlgrrl]

I have always had "secret Plan B's" that never see the perfect moment to put into action. I have them even right now. But, plans require capital to implement. I guess i could see something like this as a means to my own personal end... make bank for what i really want to do. I am getting past my prime tho; and i feel somewhat defeated like my time has run out to pursue dreams and must now buckle down and keep a good job for my future. This, incidently, is something that Daddy NEVER learned to do and look where it got him. No self-sustaining income, broke, living off the government. That sounds so disgusting to hear/read.

And don't feel that bad-- he loves to attack me and cuss you whenever he can. You and all those other "goddamn queer bitches."

[la_luna]

As long as I made a good impression on him, that's all that matters ;)

There's nothing wrong with using a job as a means to an end. And there's nothing wrong with a job being the end unto itself.

If what will make you happy is some financial security, having your little place in the country with your critters, and having a circle of people around you who love and care for you, then do what you have to do.

Would you have to go out of town to do the pharm tech program?

[mindlgrrl]

From what i've heard from various sources (not just Daddy), you just have to take a test to get licensed. Don't know how much it costs, but sometimes a pharmacy will sponsor you or something. I'll ask the pharmacy ppl @ work and then talk to Missy about it.

The pharmacy @ my store and the other one closer to my house seem pretty full. I have even gotten that far in thinking about it. We'll see.

[hoper]

Girl it's never to late to figure out how to get where you want to be and start working on it. Hell look at me, I finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up and started working on it. While I'm all excited about May and finally having this degree it is only part of the journey. I still have grad school. I'm still working on my plans for exactly what I want to do when I'm finished and I'm sure I'm going to take jobs I'm not thrilled about until I can find the one I want to do. The last thing in the world I want to do is be a child protective service worker. I have no plans to ever do it but if that's the step I end up having to take in order to get where I want to be I'll do it and try to make the best of it. You know how well I understand the financial and parental issues. It's never "selling out" to make choices that improve your life