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I'm so crushed.
My wonderful boyfriend, whom I've loved and treasured as a friend and otherwise for the past 6 years was supposed to come home this summer. He's in Louisiana right now. I was planning to go see him this month. He's supposed to be going to Beaumont at the end of May for another month, which would make him very accessible, and I would get to spend an incredible amount of time with him before he goes to Iraq in August for x amount of time. (note: i see my boyfriend MAX 3 times a year so this was big.) He was then supposed to come home for 12 days. Supposedly.
I cannot see him in Louisiana, it isn't allowed.
He cannot go to Beaumont for a month, as his detail was canceled.
I try not to complain. Bran's awesome for doing what he is, and I'm so proud of how much he's matured and grown up. I try not to be selfish, but I can't help it. I miss him so much. So i guess this summer I'll have to settle for a 12 day visit with my boyfriend, instead of the 3 month long one. Damnit, Damnit, Damnit.
I'm tired of hearing my friends complain about how they miss ___ because they only see them once a week and they live in different cities. I'm tired of going to see stupid romantic comedies and wishing he was there. I'm tired of going to dinners like the one tonight, and being alone at a table of couples. I'm tired of resenting all the stupid couples who falsify the idea they are in love. I'm tired of thinking "This would be so much more fun if Brandon was here." I'm exhausted from missing him.
It kills me that I'm in a great relationship with a wonderful person whom I love, but never get to see.