I do this to myself...

[mindysaboob]

  Mindy's love life hasn't been working out too well. Then again, I think she said after last time she just didn't quite feel the same about it. Which is kinda harsh since none of that was my fault but it's not that I don't understand where she is coming from. Yeah, vague, I know. Deal with it. - Sept 17th post

To this day it isn't working out. Not

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because your heart broke

[mindysaboob]

Plenty of guys after me means nothing. You have plenty of girls that like you, and that you like. And what does that mean? Nothing. Yea, they like, or love me, grats for them. They're in the same position with me, as I am with you. You want me to tell you about them? Seath likes me, cares about me alot... he's accepting my feelings are else where, and hes ok with friendship. Adam, has always loved me, yea great way of showing it by continusly being an ass to me, but he does care, as much as he can act like he doesn't. He to knows I'd never accept him as more then a friend, because of the time he came into my life. I like guys, and tell you I like them to cover up what ever feelings I have for you. I did like Heph, and when things didn't work out, I fell back on you, like I have long before James and I were over

Re: because your heart broke

[mindysaboob]

I didn't mean it like that... you weren't convent for me, like I was for you. Before James and I were finally over, I examined what you really ment to me, I just hide how I felt, because you love May. Yea, seemed like I got over us pretty quickly the first time, having you as a friend was better then losing you completely.

"One thing you'll never be, is always the same" You're right, I won't. Because I'm to busy trying to forget about these feelings I have for you, just like yours for May, they won't change.

Seath is to me, what I am to you, in a sense.

I just want to be loved. Someone that treats me like you do, but actually return those feelings. You will settle one day, as will I, because you'll finally tire of chasing that one thing you'll never have.

But none of this will matter tomorrow, or later today, because I'll lock myself back up, and continue pretending things are ok. And you'll be fine with that, because you want things to be that way.