A Season With You 5/?
Title: A Season With You 5/?
Author: minhosims
Rating: G
Pairing: 2min
Summary: Taemin is a loner. He enjoyed all his wonderful time alone until Minho come and took his lonely times away. Taemin doesn’t want to befriend Minho, remembering his last friendship didn’t end well and gave him deep wounds. He doesn’t want his heart to be injured again so he decided to act like a loner. But, could he ignore Minho who seems so cool and caring at the same time?
A/N: Finally, I updated this fic ^^ Still, this fic is unbeta-ed. Hope my mistakes don't bother you too much. COMMENT PLEASE :D
I moved my body and stopped only a minute later because of the pain in my abs and my left knee. I groaned a little and forced my body to move. I found Taemin’s bed empty but the sounds of TV calmed me down. He must be watching TV right now. I reached my phone on the table and saw something unfamiliar there. I looked at soccer strap on my table and read the post-it. I sighed when I read it.
Sorry Tae, I’m not angry to you. I just try to make up my mind. I was too jealous when I saw you with Jiyoung yesterday. Wait, what words did I use? Jealous? No, I mean I just hate it. I hate watching him with her, especially when he held Jiyoung so close. They were too close. I know that I have no reason to hate it. It’s up to him whether he wants to hold Jiyoung or not. But, I feel disappointed when I saw it. Gosh, Taemin, what are you doing to me?
I walked to the kitchen, ignored Taemin when I passed living room. I took a bottle of milk and back to living room. I sat on the couch but not too close to him.
“Good morning Minho hyung,” he greeted me with his soft voice. I sighed. Taemin, did you know how hard to ignore you when you talk to me with that soft voice? “Hyung, I heard you groan in your sleep, especially when you moved. I thought it was because of the match. Is it still hurt?”
I can’t hold it anymore; I turned to face him and shocked when I saw his face. He looks so tired and has a worse eye bag. Suddenly, I regretted my decision to disregard him when he got nightmare last night. He must be stayed up all night. I want to ask him to sleep right now but I can’t before I’m done with him.
“Why did you come with Jiyoung?”
“Uh?” He looks confused. “I-I just didn’t want to come alone since I never watch a match outside the school before.”
“Then, why did you hold her so close?”
He looks confused again. “She was too excited to realize that her position was quite dangerous. She might be fall to the person in front of her if I didn’t hold her.”
Well, it wasn’t enough for me. The memories of he's holding Jiyoung was frustrating me so much.
“Then, why did you just leave after the match?”
“Hyung, why did you ask such an unimportant questions?”
“Just answer me”
“Well, actually Nana and Jiyoung asked me to accompany them to buy a presence for Nana’s brother but I said I had appointment with you. We made a deal that I’ll accompany them if they come to the match with me. But, Nana left first because she met her ex and didn’t want to see him. So, she left us and kept remind us to leave as soon as the match ended because she didn’t want to wait any longer.” What the hell with your answer Lee Taemin? You left me just because Nana didn’t want to wait any longer? It wouldn’t be more than five minutes to greet me.
“Are you mad at me because of it, hyung?” He asked me back but I didn’t answer him. “Sorry hyung, I’m sorry. I really wanted to meet you but Jiyoung forced me to leave. Sorry hyung, I’ll come alone next time if you have another match. But please, don’t mad at me.”
I heard his voice trembling when he said the last sentence. Gosh, Taemin, how can I resist you?
“Get some rest” I said.
“Huh?”
“Look at your face and your eye bag. You mustn’t sleep well. Go sleep.”
“No, hyung.” I turned my face to him.
“Well, I should be the one to say sorry about yesterday. I didn’t mean to but I was just too disappointed. I’m sorry for ignoring your nightmare, I regret it. Now, go sleep. I’ll wake you up if you get bad dream.”
“No. I don’t want another one this morning, hyung.” My heart dropped as I heard his answer. His last nightmare must be worst. I feel bad about it; I shouldn’t ignore him last night. I remembered the night when he slept with me. I pulled him and put his head on my lap.
“Go sleep, Tae. I promise I won’t let any bad dream come to you when you sleep.”
He fell asleep on my lap in a minute; I caressed his honey hair, and stared at his peaceful face. I enjoyed every seconds of this precious moment, didn’t want to let it passed just like that. Sometimes, I felt his body tensed but it quickly back to relax after I stroke his arm softly to calm him down. Taemin, I’m sorry. I promise I’ll protect you from now on.
***
I was relieved when Minho said he didn’t mad at me anymore. Even though it was quite weird he mad at me just because I held Jiyoung, but I don’t care. As long as I can be with him I’ll do whatever he wants. Wait, no Taemin, don’t be too far or you will end up with another wound in your heart. And you don’t want something bad happen to him, right? So, don’t go too far.
“Morning Tae,” Minho greeted me when I opened the door.
“Morning hyung,” Minho always waits for me and greets me with his warm smile. What a perfect things to start the day.
“I’m going to hang out with Key and the others today. Do you want to join us?” Minho asked me while walked to the class. He must be joking.
“No hyung. I have to study; the mid test begins next week.” I lied to him. I think he know that I’m lying but I hope he won’t force me to join.
“Okay, give me your phone.”
“What? What for?”
“Just give me your phone.” I gave my phone to him hesitantly. “I’ll text you when I’m with them.” He took my phone and typed something there. “Here, I’ve saved my number.” He gave my phone back.
“Okay, I call you.” I called him to give him my number. I heard his phone’s ringtone and he took his phone out from his pocket. Then, I shocked when I saw soccer strap hanging on his phone.
I don’t know what to say but I’m extremely happy to know that he uses the soccer strap from me. And for the first time in these years, I found myself smiling on something. Before I could realize what happened with my phone, Minho was staring at me, his jaw dropped on its maximum.
“Tae, do you know you’re smiling just now?” His eyes getting bigger while staring at my face. He looks surprised with my smiling face.
“Hmm,” I replied, still smiling at his phone. I’m too happy to let this smile leave my face.
“Aigoo, it’s so cute.” He patted my head and ruffled my hair. “Your face looks better when you smile, Tae. So, from now, can you give me that smile every day?”
“Umm, I think I can’t hyung. I can’t smile as easy as you, I think I need something to make me smile.” I smirked.
“Lee Taemin, I want your smiling face everyday no matter what. I’ll force you to do.”
“Then, what you need to do is make me smile every day, hyung.”
***
To: Taemin :)
I brought you cheese steak.
Let’s have dinner together when I’m back
“Are you sure don’t want to have dinner with us?” Onew asked me.
“No hyung. I’ll have dinner in the dorm.”
“Is it because that annoying one?” Key started.
“Stop calling him like that Key. I’m not really hungry right now. I think I better have dinner later.”
“It’s okay if you want to have dinner with him. You should be his friend, shouldn’t you? We know that you want to win our bet.” Jonghyun said.
“No, no. Okay, listen to me. I’m no longer interested on our bet. I want to be his friend not to win the bet; I’m sincerely wanted to be his friend. Let’s just forget about it.”
“Yaah, Choi Minho, you must be know I never play with a bet. You know I never joking at it, once you make a bet with me, we will go through it no matter what.” Jonghyun replied. Shit, this stubborn one, is it difficult to forget it?
“Okay, it’s up to you hyung. But I’m not befriending him because of our bet.” I stood up and took the cheese steak. “I have to go.”
From: Taemin :)
Thanks hyung
I smiled at his message. No hyung, I’m not with him because our bet.
***
“No, hyung. I don’t think it will be okay.” I grabbed Taemin’s wrist and pulled him into Key and the others direction. I want Taemin befriends with them too but he seems not sure about it.
“It’ll be okay. I promise.”
“If you want to sit with them, it’s okay hyung. I’m fine having lunch without you, but please-“ He didn’t finished his words because we’ve reached them. I saw Key sent me a dead glare because I brought Taemin. I forced Taemin to sit between me and Onew hyung. Taemin looks very uncomforted with his position.
“Uhm, well, let’s eat.” Onew’s voice was so creepy when he said that.
“I think I lose my appetite,” Key was about to go when Jonghyun held his arm to stop him. Jonghyun whispered something to his ears and he sent an irritating look at Taemin. I felt Taemin tensed beside me.
“Hyung, I think I should-“
“No. Stay here.” I pushed his shoulder down, forced him to sit.
“Okay, stop! Both of you will not leave this table before we finished our lunch. Key, Taemin, just sit and eat your lunch. Key, stop giving Taemin your annoying glance and you Taemin, behave yourself. This is your first day with us. Is it clear?” Onew scolded all of us. Key dropped his head and Taemin held my hand tightly while Onew scolded us. I knew he must be scared at Onew. He always scared us when he’s angry. That’s why we respect him so much as the older one.
“Do you want steak for your lunch?” I asked Taemin.
“Yeah,”
“Okay, I’ll get one for you,” Taemin held my hand when I stood up.
“I’ll go with you-“
“I’ve said you can’t leave this table Taemin. Let Minho buy you food, you stay here.” Onew said to him. I can’t help but smile at him.
***
It’s not ended yet. After had had nightmare lunch with the-precious-popular guys, Minho asked me to join their small study group tonight. No, it wasn’t request; it’s more likely a command.
“Are you-? Yaaaah, why are you still on your bed?”
“I’m not going with you hyung. You know I can’t.” I beg him.
“I know you can.”
“But I’m already sleepy,” I make a fake yawn after saying that.
“Okay, let’s make a deal. You come with me and I’ll sleep with you tonight, which means you’ll get no nightmare. Or, go sleep now, alone, and I won’t be here when you get nightmares.”
Damn Minho, you are so sly. What will make me refuse a chance to get a night without any nightmare?
Okay, this is THE WORST study group I have ever known. Jonghyun hyung is so bad at math; he even couldn’t do an easy math equation. I wonder why Minho can be so patient teaching an idiot like him. Onew hyung has been memorizing genetic diseases which I’ll easily memorize in a minute. Key hyung always skips some important note while doing his chemistry. Maybe, this is why they never beat me so far.
I took some paper and started to write some advices there. First, I wrote for Key hyung. I made some examples for him and explained how to solve the examples clearly in a simple way. I used red marker to note the important things so he won’t skip it anymore. Second, I gave Onew hyung some advices to memorize those diseases quickly. And for Jonghyun hyung, I explained every step of math equation carefully and attractively so it will be easier for him to understand. After finished doing that, I collect all of those paper and put it on the table.
“Hyung, I’m very sleepy right now. I don’t think I can stay any longer. I’ll go back first,” I said to Minho and left them.
“Hey, Taemin-ah. You left your papers.” Onew hyung shouted when I reached the door.
“It’s not mine, hyung.”
***
I opened our dorm’s door and went to see Taemin. I smile when I know he’s sleeping at his bed. I changed into my pajamas and went to sleep at his bed, he’s already gave me a space on his bed.
“You’re back hyung.” He mumbled when I moved on his bed.
“You’re awake, huh? I thought you’ve fallen asleep.”
“I won’t sleep before you back, hyung. You promised to sleep with me tonight.” He said with closed eyes. I smile and ruffle his hair.
“They thanked you, Tae.” I said. “I don’t know you’re that sweet.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about hyung.”
“The papers, I know you did it. It helps them so much.”
***
As days passed, Taemin became closer to the others. He can talks to Onew hyung easily but he prefers not to talk to Jonghyun and Key. I’m sure it’s just about time until they talk to each other. I should admit that Taemin is a genius. Every time I asked him to study with me, he would read my notes just once and left me to watch TV or to play some games but he passed the exams easily. The result is going to be announced this afternoon. I already know he will be in the first place.
“Minho,” I turned to the one who called me.
“They’ve announced the result. He is in the first place again.” Key said to me.
“Good. I’ll go find him.” Jonghyun stopped me and I looked at him.
“No need to do. He’s in the cafeteria right now and we need your help.” Jonghyun smirked at me.
***
“Is it tasty?” I’m almost getting choked because of their voices. I took a sip of water before talked to them.
“What?” I asked them coldly.
“How’s your feeling? I guess you feel very proud right now, after getting the first place again this year.” Jonghyun said to me. The news wasn’t shock me. I know I would get the first place again. But, one thing that I don’t know is why they’re here.
“What do you want?” I asked them once again. I want to cast them out but I remember how Minho want me to be closer with them.
“Yaah, don’t be so cold. We’re just wondering maybe the genius one will treat us as he got the first place again this year.” Key said without looking at me. I sighed.
“Then, what do you want?”
“Yaah, don’t you hear him not to be so cold to us?” Jonghyun spoke up. “If you don’t want-“
“I’m asking you about what do you want to eat?” I cut him. “Just answer me.”
They smiled and mentioned what they want to eat. Well, I feel they took advantages on me because they ordered so many foods only for two of them. I smile while buying their food, somehow the way they act is just so silly but I like it.
“So, you’re getting closer with two, aren’t you?” He asked me. We’re in our dorm now, I’m laying lazily on the couch and Minho is sitting next to my head.
“Hmm,” I mumbled.
“Good,” He smiles at me and ruffle my hair. I love the sensation when he ruffles my hair softly with his hand. “They’re not that bad, they can be very annoying when they feel bothered by something.” He told me.
“But it wasn’t my fault if I got the first place.” He laughed at me. “Why are you laughing at me hyung?”
“You’re too innocent. They feel bothered with your words towards them. You shouldn’t say bad words to the person you even don’t know yet.”
“But I just-“ I stopped in a sudden. The reason why I hate them was because I envy their perfect friendship, the kind of friendship that I will never have.
“You just what?” He’s looking at me, waiting for my answer.
“I just..envy them,” I made my voice as low as I can.
“What?”
“I ENVY THEM‼! Have you done interrogating me? Then, I will get some rest.” I screamed at him not because I angry with him. I just feel embarrassed to say that. I move from the couch but Minho holds my wrist to stop me.
“May I know about that?” I keep my mouth closed tightly while thinking whether to tell him or not. “Please?” His voice getting deeper and I know I can’t resist it.
“I envy them, for having a perfect friendship, for having something that I will never have in my life. It hurts me to see they can smile and laugh at each other happily while I can’t. Knowing that I can’t be like that makes me hate them more.”
“You fool.” I surprised at what he done after saying that. He stood up and hugged me tightly. “How could you have such a silly thought in your great awesome brain? I’m here now, your desk mate, your room mate, your friend and soon-to-be your best friend. I’ll never leave you alone.”
I tried hard not to cry on his chest. Damn Minho, your heartbeat is calming down, your arm is securing, and your hug is comforting. I felt that your embrace is the right place I need. And why should you do this to me? You made it harder on me. How if one day I can’t be in your grip again? Because I know this won’t be long.
Shit, his phone broke our hug. I felt half relived half disappointed. One part of me reminded me not to go too far with him but the other part wanted to enjoy the feeling I felt when I was in his arm. I left him because I didn’t want to eavesdrop at his conversation. I went to my bed and lied my body on it.
“Tae, I have to go. I promise I’ll back as soon as possible.” He said to me as he took his jacket on the table in hurry.
“Where are you going hyung?”
“Key and the others ask me to come to the sushi restaurant near here. See you later.” He smiles at me before leave. Yeah, his friends must be missing hanging out with him because he spent most of his time with me lately.
It was just about five or ten minutes after I closed my eyes when suddenly I heard Minho’s ringtone ringing loudly in this silence room. I complained a little when his phone kept ringing, I woke up, and got to his phone.
“How could he forget to bring his phone? And now his dad keeps calling him.” I mumbled. I guess his dad has something important with him so I decide to bring him his phone. I took my sweater and went out. He said the sushi restaurant isn’t far from here, I think I know where it is. I walked down the street alone in hurry because his phone kept ringing and I didn’t want to answer it.
I relieved when I’ve reach the restaurant. I saw them sat in the centre of the room, I walked towards them but I stopped when I heard heartbreaking words from their conversation. I was not too far from them when I finally could hear what they said.
“You win - well umm - again, Minho. You successfully become Taemin’s friend. Aish, why do you always win whenever we make a bet?” I heard Key yelled.
“I wish someday your turn to treat us will come.” Onew added.
“Come on, pick the most expensive one. We will treat you well, befriend with Taemin should be paid high, right?” Jonghyun poke Minho’s arm.
I think no one will understand what I feel right now. Heartbreaking. Hurt. Betrayed. And the fact that Minho did this makes it even worse. It wasn’t not long after he said that he’s my friend and won’t leave me alone and now, he’s celebrating his success on befriend me. He did all of this just because a bet. I was nothing but a bet. How irritating. No, it’s not his fault, it’s your fault Lee Taemin, and you’ve gone too far with him. If you stay away from him from the beginning, maybe you won’t end up like now.
It’s not ended yet; his phone is finally ringing after being so silent for few minutes ago. And the worse is they heard his ringtone and turned to face me who am still stunned here.
“Hei Taemin-ah, since when you’re standing there?” Onew greeted me warmly but I ignored him, I put my eyes on Minho who’s totally shocked with my presence. But you must know I’m good on making a blank expression. So, I walked towards them.
“You left your phone,” I said in my cold voice and put his phone on the table.
Let’s end this fake friendship now, Choi Minho.
Author: minhosims
Rating: G
Pairing: 2min
Summary: Taemin is a loner. He enjoyed all his wonderful time alone until Minho come and took his lonely times away. Taemin doesn’t want to befriend Minho, remembering his last friendship didn’t end well and gave him deep wounds. He doesn’t want his heart to be injured again so he decided to act like a loner. But, could he ignore Minho who seems so cool and caring at the same time?
A/N: Finally, I updated this fic ^^ Still, this fic is unbeta-ed. Hope my mistakes don't bother you too much. COMMENT PLEASE :D
I moved my body and stopped only a minute later because of the pain in my abs and my left knee. I groaned a little and forced my body to move. I found Taemin’s bed empty but the sounds of TV calmed me down. He must be watching TV right now. I reached my phone on the table and saw something unfamiliar there. I looked at soccer strap on my table and read the post-it. I sighed when I read it.
Sorry Tae, I’m not angry to you. I just try to make up my mind. I was too jealous when I saw you with Jiyoung yesterday. Wait, what words did I use? Jealous? No, I mean I just hate it. I hate watching him with her, especially when he held Jiyoung so close. They were too close. I know that I have no reason to hate it. It’s up to him whether he wants to hold Jiyoung or not. But, I feel disappointed when I saw it. Gosh, Taemin, what are you doing to me?
I walked to the kitchen, ignored Taemin when I passed living room. I took a bottle of milk and back to living room. I sat on the couch but not too close to him.
“Good morning Minho hyung,” he greeted me with his soft voice. I sighed. Taemin, did you know how hard to ignore you when you talk to me with that soft voice? “Hyung, I heard you groan in your sleep, especially when you moved. I thought it was because of the match. Is it still hurt?”
I can’t hold it anymore; I turned to face him and shocked when I saw his face. He looks so tired and has a worse eye bag. Suddenly, I regretted my decision to disregard him when he got nightmare last night. He must be stayed up all night. I want to ask him to sleep right now but I can’t before I’m done with him.
“Why did you come with Jiyoung?”
“Uh?” He looks confused. “I-I just didn’t want to come alone since I never watch a match outside the school before.”
“Then, why did you hold her so close?”
He looks confused again. “She was too excited to realize that her position was quite dangerous. She might be fall to the person in front of her if I didn’t hold her.”
Well, it wasn’t enough for me. The memories of he's holding Jiyoung was frustrating me so much.
“Then, why did you just leave after the match?”
“Hyung, why did you ask such an unimportant questions?”
“Just answer me”
“Well, actually Nana and Jiyoung asked me to accompany them to buy a presence for Nana’s brother but I said I had appointment with you. We made a deal that I’ll accompany them if they come to the match with me. But, Nana left first because she met her ex and didn’t want to see him. So, she left us and kept remind us to leave as soon as the match ended because she didn’t want to wait any longer.” What the hell with your answer Lee Taemin? You left me just because Nana didn’t want to wait any longer? It wouldn’t be more than five minutes to greet me.
“Are you mad at me because of it, hyung?” He asked me back but I didn’t answer him. “Sorry hyung, I’m sorry. I really wanted to meet you but Jiyoung forced me to leave. Sorry hyung, I’ll come alone next time if you have another match. But please, don’t mad at me.”
I heard his voice trembling when he said the last sentence. Gosh, Taemin, how can I resist you?
“Get some rest” I said.
“Huh?”
“Look at your face and your eye bag. You mustn’t sleep well. Go sleep.”
“No, hyung.” I turned my face to him.
“Well, I should be the one to say sorry about yesterday. I didn’t mean to but I was just too disappointed. I’m sorry for ignoring your nightmare, I regret it. Now, go sleep. I’ll wake you up if you get bad dream.”
“No. I don’t want another one this morning, hyung.” My heart dropped as I heard his answer. His last nightmare must be worst. I feel bad about it; I shouldn’t ignore him last night. I remembered the night when he slept with me. I pulled him and put his head on my lap.
“Go sleep, Tae. I promise I won’t let any bad dream come to you when you sleep.”
He fell asleep on my lap in a minute; I caressed his honey hair, and stared at his peaceful face. I enjoyed every seconds of this precious moment, didn’t want to let it passed just like that. Sometimes, I felt his body tensed but it quickly back to relax after I stroke his arm softly to calm him down. Taemin, I’m sorry. I promise I’ll protect you from now on.
***
I was relieved when Minho said he didn’t mad at me anymore. Even though it was quite weird he mad at me just because I held Jiyoung, but I don’t care. As long as I can be with him I’ll do whatever he wants. Wait, no Taemin, don’t be too far or you will end up with another wound in your heart. And you don’t want something bad happen to him, right? So, don’t go too far.
“Morning Tae,” Minho greeted me when I opened the door.
“Morning hyung,” Minho always waits for me and greets me with his warm smile. What a perfect things to start the day.
“I’m going to hang out with Key and the others today. Do you want to join us?” Minho asked me while walked to the class. He must be joking.
“No hyung. I have to study; the mid test begins next week.” I lied to him. I think he know that I’m lying but I hope he won’t force me to join.
“Okay, give me your phone.”
“What? What for?”
“Just give me your phone.” I gave my phone to him hesitantly. “I’ll text you when I’m with them.” He took my phone and typed something there. “Here, I’ve saved my number.” He gave my phone back.
“Okay, I call you.” I called him to give him my number. I heard his phone’s ringtone and he took his phone out from his pocket. Then, I shocked when I saw soccer strap hanging on his phone.
I don’t know what to say but I’m extremely happy to know that he uses the soccer strap from me. And for the first time in these years, I found myself smiling on something. Before I could realize what happened with my phone, Minho was staring at me, his jaw dropped on its maximum.
“Tae, do you know you’re smiling just now?” His eyes getting bigger while staring at my face. He looks surprised with my smiling face.
“Hmm,” I replied, still smiling at his phone. I’m too happy to let this smile leave my face.
“Aigoo, it’s so cute.” He patted my head and ruffled my hair. “Your face looks better when you smile, Tae. So, from now, can you give me that smile every day?”
“Umm, I think I can’t hyung. I can’t smile as easy as you, I think I need something to make me smile.” I smirked.
“Lee Taemin, I want your smiling face everyday no matter what. I’ll force you to do.”
“Then, what you need to do is make me smile every day, hyung.”
***
To: Taemin :)
I brought you cheese steak.
Let’s have dinner together when I’m back
“Are you sure don’t want to have dinner with us?” Onew asked me.
“No hyung. I’ll have dinner in the dorm.”
“Is it because that annoying one?” Key started.
“Stop calling him like that Key. I’m not really hungry right now. I think I better have dinner later.”
“It’s okay if you want to have dinner with him. You should be his friend, shouldn’t you? We know that you want to win our bet.” Jonghyun said.
“No, no. Okay, listen to me. I’m no longer interested on our bet. I want to be his friend not to win the bet; I’m sincerely wanted to be his friend. Let’s just forget about it.”
“Yaah, Choi Minho, you must be know I never play with a bet. You know I never joking at it, once you make a bet with me, we will go through it no matter what.” Jonghyun replied. Shit, this stubborn one, is it difficult to forget it?
“Okay, it’s up to you hyung. But I’m not befriending him because of our bet.” I stood up and took the cheese steak. “I have to go.”
From: Taemin :)
Thanks hyung
I smiled at his message. No hyung, I’m not with him because our bet.
***
“No, hyung. I don’t think it will be okay.” I grabbed Taemin’s wrist and pulled him into Key and the others direction. I want Taemin befriends with them too but he seems not sure about it.
“It’ll be okay. I promise.”
“If you want to sit with them, it’s okay hyung. I’m fine having lunch without you, but please-“ He didn’t finished his words because we’ve reached them. I saw Key sent me a dead glare because I brought Taemin. I forced Taemin to sit between me and Onew hyung. Taemin looks very uncomforted with his position.
“Uhm, well, let’s eat.” Onew’s voice was so creepy when he said that.
“I think I lose my appetite,” Key was about to go when Jonghyun held his arm to stop him. Jonghyun whispered something to his ears and he sent an irritating look at Taemin. I felt Taemin tensed beside me.
“Hyung, I think I should-“
“No. Stay here.” I pushed his shoulder down, forced him to sit.
“Okay, stop! Both of you will not leave this table before we finished our lunch. Key, Taemin, just sit and eat your lunch. Key, stop giving Taemin your annoying glance and you Taemin, behave yourself. This is your first day with us. Is it clear?” Onew scolded all of us. Key dropped his head and Taemin held my hand tightly while Onew scolded us. I knew he must be scared at Onew. He always scared us when he’s angry. That’s why we respect him so much as the older one.
“Do you want steak for your lunch?” I asked Taemin.
“Yeah,”
“Okay, I’ll get one for you,” Taemin held my hand when I stood up.
“I’ll go with you-“
“I’ve said you can’t leave this table Taemin. Let Minho buy you food, you stay here.” Onew said to him. I can’t help but smile at him.
***
It’s not ended yet. After had had nightmare lunch with the-precious-popular guys, Minho asked me to join their small study group tonight. No, it wasn’t request; it’s more likely a command.
“Are you-? Yaaaah, why are you still on your bed?”
“I’m not going with you hyung. You know I can’t.” I beg him.
“I know you can.”
“But I’m already sleepy,” I make a fake yawn after saying that.
“Okay, let’s make a deal. You come with me and I’ll sleep with you tonight, which means you’ll get no nightmare. Or, go sleep now, alone, and I won’t be here when you get nightmares.”
Damn Minho, you are so sly. What will make me refuse a chance to get a night without any nightmare?
Okay, this is THE WORST study group I have ever known. Jonghyun hyung is so bad at math; he even couldn’t do an easy math equation. I wonder why Minho can be so patient teaching an idiot like him. Onew hyung has been memorizing genetic diseases which I’ll easily memorize in a minute. Key hyung always skips some important note while doing his chemistry. Maybe, this is why they never beat me so far.
I took some paper and started to write some advices there. First, I wrote for Key hyung. I made some examples for him and explained how to solve the examples clearly in a simple way. I used red marker to note the important things so he won’t skip it anymore. Second, I gave Onew hyung some advices to memorize those diseases quickly. And for Jonghyun hyung, I explained every step of math equation carefully and attractively so it will be easier for him to understand. After finished doing that, I collect all of those paper and put it on the table.
“Hyung, I’m very sleepy right now. I don’t think I can stay any longer. I’ll go back first,” I said to Minho and left them.
“Hey, Taemin-ah. You left your papers.” Onew hyung shouted when I reached the door.
“It’s not mine, hyung.”
***
I opened our dorm’s door and went to see Taemin. I smile when I know he’s sleeping at his bed. I changed into my pajamas and went to sleep at his bed, he’s already gave me a space on his bed.
“You’re back hyung.” He mumbled when I moved on his bed.
“You’re awake, huh? I thought you’ve fallen asleep.”
“I won’t sleep before you back, hyung. You promised to sleep with me tonight.” He said with closed eyes. I smile and ruffle his hair.
“They thanked you, Tae.” I said. “I don’t know you’re that sweet.”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about hyung.”
“The papers, I know you did it. It helps them so much.”
***
As days passed, Taemin became closer to the others. He can talks to Onew hyung easily but he prefers not to talk to Jonghyun and Key. I’m sure it’s just about time until they talk to each other. I should admit that Taemin is a genius. Every time I asked him to study with me, he would read my notes just once and left me to watch TV or to play some games but he passed the exams easily. The result is going to be announced this afternoon. I already know he will be in the first place.
“Minho,” I turned to the one who called me.
“They’ve announced the result. He is in the first place again.” Key said to me.
“Good. I’ll go find him.” Jonghyun stopped me and I looked at him.
“No need to do. He’s in the cafeteria right now and we need your help.” Jonghyun smirked at me.
***
“Is it tasty?” I’m almost getting choked because of their voices. I took a sip of water before talked to them.
“What?” I asked them coldly.
“How’s your feeling? I guess you feel very proud right now, after getting the first place again this year.” Jonghyun said to me. The news wasn’t shock me. I know I would get the first place again. But, one thing that I don’t know is why they’re here.
“What do you want?” I asked them once again. I want to cast them out but I remember how Minho want me to be closer with them.
“Yaah, don’t be so cold. We’re just wondering maybe the genius one will treat us as he got the first place again this year.” Key said without looking at me. I sighed.
“Then, what do you want?”
“Yaah, don’t you hear him not to be so cold to us?” Jonghyun spoke up. “If you don’t want-“
“I’m asking you about what do you want to eat?” I cut him. “Just answer me.”
They smiled and mentioned what they want to eat. Well, I feel they took advantages on me because they ordered so many foods only for two of them. I smile while buying their food, somehow the way they act is just so silly but I like it.
“So, you’re getting closer with two, aren’t you?” He asked me. We’re in our dorm now, I’m laying lazily on the couch and Minho is sitting next to my head.
“Hmm,” I mumbled.
“Good,” He smiles at me and ruffle my hair. I love the sensation when he ruffles my hair softly with his hand. “They’re not that bad, they can be very annoying when they feel bothered by something.” He told me.
“But it wasn’t my fault if I got the first place.” He laughed at me. “Why are you laughing at me hyung?”
“You’re too innocent. They feel bothered with your words towards them. You shouldn’t say bad words to the person you even don’t know yet.”
“But I just-“ I stopped in a sudden. The reason why I hate them was because I envy their perfect friendship, the kind of friendship that I will never have.
“You just what?” He’s looking at me, waiting for my answer.
“I just..envy them,” I made my voice as low as I can.
“What?”
“I ENVY THEM‼! Have you done interrogating me? Then, I will get some rest.” I screamed at him not because I angry with him. I just feel embarrassed to say that. I move from the couch but Minho holds my wrist to stop me.
“May I know about that?” I keep my mouth closed tightly while thinking whether to tell him or not. “Please?” His voice getting deeper and I know I can’t resist it.
“I envy them, for having a perfect friendship, for having something that I will never have in my life. It hurts me to see they can smile and laugh at each other happily while I can’t. Knowing that I can’t be like that makes me hate them more.”
“You fool.” I surprised at what he done after saying that. He stood up and hugged me tightly. “How could you have such a silly thought in your great awesome brain? I’m here now, your desk mate, your room mate, your friend and soon-to-be your best friend. I’ll never leave you alone.”
I tried hard not to cry on his chest. Damn Minho, your heartbeat is calming down, your arm is securing, and your hug is comforting. I felt that your embrace is the right place I need. And why should you do this to me? You made it harder on me. How if one day I can’t be in your grip again? Because I know this won’t be long.
Shit, his phone broke our hug. I felt half relived half disappointed. One part of me reminded me not to go too far with him but the other part wanted to enjoy the feeling I felt when I was in his arm. I left him because I didn’t want to eavesdrop at his conversation. I went to my bed and lied my body on it.
“Tae, I have to go. I promise I’ll back as soon as possible.” He said to me as he took his jacket on the table in hurry.
“Where are you going hyung?”
“Key and the others ask me to come to the sushi restaurant near here. See you later.” He smiles at me before leave. Yeah, his friends must be missing hanging out with him because he spent most of his time with me lately.
It was just about five or ten minutes after I closed my eyes when suddenly I heard Minho’s ringtone ringing loudly in this silence room. I complained a little when his phone kept ringing, I woke up, and got to his phone.
“How could he forget to bring his phone? And now his dad keeps calling him.” I mumbled. I guess his dad has something important with him so I decide to bring him his phone. I took my sweater and went out. He said the sushi restaurant isn’t far from here, I think I know where it is. I walked down the street alone in hurry because his phone kept ringing and I didn’t want to answer it.
I relieved when I’ve reach the restaurant. I saw them sat in the centre of the room, I walked towards them but I stopped when I heard heartbreaking words from their conversation. I was not too far from them when I finally could hear what they said.
“You win - well umm - again, Minho. You successfully become Taemin’s friend. Aish, why do you always win whenever we make a bet?” I heard Key yelled.
“I wish someday your turn to treat us will come.” Onew added.
“Come on, pick the most expensive one. We will treat you well, befriend with Taemin should be paid high, right?” Jonghyun poke Minho’s arm.
I think no one will understand what I feel right now. Heartbreaking. Hurt. Betrayed. And the fact that Minho did this makes it even worse. It wasn’t not long after he said that he’s my friend and won’t leave me alone and now, he’s celebrating his success on befriend me. He did all of this just because a bet. I was nothing but a bet. How irritating. No, it’s not his fault, it’s your fault Lee Taemin, and you’ve gone too far with him. If you stay away from him from the beginning, maybe you won’t end up like now.
It’s not ended yet; his phone is finally ringing after being so silent for few minutes ago. And the worse is they heard his ringtone and turned to face me who am still stunned here.
“Hei Taemin-ah, since when you’re standing there?” Onew greeted me warmly but I ignored him, I put my eyes on Minho who’s totally shocked with my presence. But you must know I’m good on making a blank expression. So, I walked towards them.
“You left your phone,” I said in my cold voice and put his phone on the table.
Let’s end this fake friendship now, Choi Minho.