Questioning the Most Important Things

[mini_megs]

I've been thinking about "important things" lately. Yes, I think about what I want to be when I "grow up", but that's not what I'm talking about here. I'm talking about my faith, my religion, my proverbial personal constitution, my core beliefs, and the essence of who I am as a person, as an individual, as myself

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[littletexas]

I'm praying for you too Megs. I've had a lot of the same struggles in life, and have learned the best way to have a real faith is to question God. Despite what the older, wiser Christians may say, it seems stupid to me when I have a really hard question not to ask the only One who knows the answer. If God really is God, then He must be big enough to handle all my questions, right? I agree with what Cara said, about it being hard to be a hypocrite unless your striving for perfection, which is what we are supposed to do as Christians: strive to be like Christ. I have also recently been frustrated returning home to be assaulted by all the hypocrisy in my own church, but it suddenly occurred to me that by judging their hypocrisy, I was actually being a hypocrite myself, because it says, "Judge not, lest you be judged," and, as much as Christians are supposed to pull together, they are imperfect and they will let you down, but it's not a reflection on Christ, because He is perfect. I hope this doesn't come across as preaching, because that

Judgmentalism

[mini_megs]

Janel, thanks for taking the time to comment. Your message wasn't "preachy", and I always appreciate your opinions. I started at the top of the comments and worked my way down, so I think I've already addressed most of what you've written about in my responses to AJ and Cara.

You're right, calling others hypocrites IS hypocritical in a way if I'm judging them for being judgmental. At the same time though, it is an objective observation. Just because I notice that others are not doing as they say doesn't mean that I'm not doing what I say.

I completely relate when you say "If God is really God, then He must be big enough to handle all my questions, right?". That's what I'm banking on right now. I haven't closed my mind to the possibilty of God, I'm just not willing to walk the walk and talk the Christian talk without my heart being on the same page as my head. I need to be real.

[chamedragon]

I went through almost exactly what you are currently going through about a year and a half ago. I eventually did come full circle, and now I can honestly say I have a stronger faith than I did before I threw everything away. Maybe throwing everything into the fire lets you find out what is gold and what is dross. I will be praying for you, not that you "rechristianize" (since I think a lot of what is called christianity really has nothing to do with Christ, or Christians) but rather that you do find gold among the dross.