so I've been thinking a lot lately. and i thought id try and be honest with this whole livejournal thing now matter who reads it. =/ (well isnt that nice... XP ( Read more... )

I just love how people find time to ignore me and make me feel like nothing all the time.. I feel so alone lately. I feel like a third wheel... like I'm never really wanted around. I don't feel like I contribute a lot and I'm failing myself. Im slipping in school and my family life is really.. interesting. Friends? nice to hear that word.. since I ( Read more... )

yAy! Im going to my best buddys birthday party! hopefully i can.. have an awesome time. I had a dream about it LOL! I was going in like normal clothing.. typical t-shirt and cargos or something like that and I show up w/ my present and look in the country club. O.o it was HUGE and everyone was in formal wear.. a little out of place I DEFINATELY was ( Read more... )

my lj looks like crap right now so please dont judge... and ash no im not copying you!! well actually i am so be flattered ..xp ( Read more... )

theyve clipped my wings again. took the pardon and left me.no use to fly away to my yesterday of freedom. my eyes died back today seeing the hurt i may have done. beat me instead of them ( Read more... )

FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS ( Read more... )

OH WOW! I feel so great right now... even though my hands are still filled with the nervousness I had before I performed for the judge at Lake Mary, I still cant believe how accomplished i feel! I was a bit disappointed after my performance.. i played some SOUR notes and my tempo was.. unspeakabley horrible. But despite the facts stated.. there no ( Read more... )

>>To the world you may be one person ( Read more... )

i hurts when you figure things out and wish you were as ignorant as before... stupid and happy.. heh. i wish things were like before.. it hurts thinking about how happy i was and why things have to change. it hurts knowing and realizing certain things about your life that youre not ready to hear. and when you think youre something special, that ( Read more... )

things have been going great at school! i mean i couldnt have been any happier this entire school year...well thats not true. but my point is that ive felt so alive at school and it feels so awesome... until i come home. i try so hard and everytime i think ive finally gotten somewhere i learn im even farther away than i ever was before. stranger ( Read more... )