STAY
It has been a while since i posted..
Truthfully, I had tons of things to say. But, my free time is very very limited. To be able to open LJ, view and give comments here and there in a short minute already satisfied me. It helped me somehow got through out the day, sometimes for the whole week and more..
I felt bad that sometime during the week, I could not even find a bit of time, even a few sec for myself. It's not that I'm busy or anything. It's just that my time management is at its worst and my insomnia don't help solve things.
I found it hard to focus in class and I can't finish my assignments and projects on time which add up the fuel to my self-hatred. I felt like giving up truly but ended up regretting feeling that way.
I haven't been seeing my boys for a while now.
I missed Seunghyunnie that sometimes I think I can hear him rapping by my ear when I was in lecture hall. I missed how jiyongie made me giddy with his smile and his rap. I missed seeing Baby making me blush when he turned on his sexy-but-cute mode. I actually forgot all these things and it made both head and heart hurt.
Damn college life. I blamed all this on college life. It has been taking all of my time.
It irked me that my time management was still causing problems.
I just want some time to get away with all this and get settled.
I went back home and do nothing. Except for updating myself with BB stuff and talking to jem-bb at FB via comments and reading all of my f-list fics 24/7. Sorry that nothing came from me. I guess writing is no longer an advantage for me.
Now, I'm busying myself with revisions and f-list and GD's album and Super Junior. Back then, I'm used to drown myself with SuJu, 2PM and B.E.G. I found them relieving of my Big Bang- sickness. Now, I'm not going to do the same. I going to drown myself with Big Bang's songs.
I found my HEAVEN. I am going to STAY there UNTIL WHENEVER. ALWAYS. If you want, FOLLOW ME. You'll find that you're at the TOP OF THE WORLD. You wont be able to BREATHE as EMOTION floods in.
I'll be back..but, I dont know when.
Truthfully, I had tons of things to say. But, my free time is very very limited. To be able to open LJ, view and give comments here and there in a short minute already satisfied me. It helped me somehow got through out the day, sometimes for the whole week and more..
I felt bad that sometime during the week, I could not even find a bit of time, even a few sec for myself. It's not that I'm busy or anything. It's just that my time management is at its worst and my insomnia don't help solve things.
I found it hard to focus in class and I can't finish my assignments and projects on time which add up the fuel to my self-hatred. I felt like giving up truly but ended up regretting feeling that way.
I haven't been seeing my boys for a while now.
I missed Seunghyunnie that sometimes I think I can hear him rapping by my ear when I was in lecture hall. I missed how jiyongie made me giddy with his smile and his rap. I missed seeing Baby making me blush when he turned on his sexy-but-cute mode. I actually forgot all these things and it made both head and heart hurt.
Damn college life. I blamed all this on college life. It has been taking all of my time.
It irked me that my time management was still causing problems.
I just want some time to get away with all this and get settled.
I went back home and do nothing. Except for updating myself with BB stuff and talking to jem-bb at FB via comments and reading all of my f-list fics 24/7. Sorry that nothing came from me. I guess writing is no longer an advantage for me.
Now, I'm busying myself with revisions and f-list and GD's album and Super Junior. Back then, I'm used to drown myself with SuJu, 2PM and B.E.G. I found them relieving of my Big Bang- sickness. Now, I'm not going to do the same. I going to drown myself with Big Bang's songs.
I found my HEAVEN. I am going to STAY there UNTIL WHENEVER. ALWAYS. If you want, FOLLOW ME. You'll find that you're at the TOP OF THE WORLD. You wont be able to BREATHE as EMOTION floods in.
I'll be back..but, I dont know when.