Picture this, me sitting here typing shit into my live journal, which is long overdue I might add, I'm slightly (ok, more than slightly) inebriated (and still can't spell for shit
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I haven't seen you in a year and a half, so take this with a grain of salt, but my gut reaction on the basis of what you're describing is clinical depression. It doesn't have to take the form of the classical angsty hate-self-hate-life thing - it can take the form of poor stress tolerance, turning anger inward rather than outward (often because of a vague fear of hurting people, because the anger feels extreme and out of control), overreacting to minor events, off-kilter responses to social cues etc etc. In other words, a lot of the problems you describe. I'd book a long appointment with your GP and talk it over
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You made some valid points and nailed it quite well, i dont have good stress tolerance at the moment. I dont actually feel quite as bad as my email normally and I think to a degree the wine I had last night magnified it.
Id had a bad week and a big run in with my friend Deb and was feeling down. Deb dumped it on me that I am Madam Shouty/snippy when ever she says stuff, so now she just doesnt say anything, when in fact she should. I personally think its her issue because she should just tell me to shut the hell up or let me know im doing it. Mind you, you've probably heard the crap that comes out of her mouth sometimes LOL!
I do think, though, that if I start feeling like i did last night, normally/everyday, that's when I'll march on down to my doctor. :)
Min! Good to see you LJing again, and with something more sensible and coherent than many of the things I've been putting up here in the past few weeks.
Was there something specific that's happened recently that's making you think this? Your work emails don't seem to have changed in tone or subject. As to whether you're overreacting to people, it's impossible for me to say. I don't remember you being quick to anger, or even getting angry a lot - so clearly that's changed in the last few months.
Red might be right in that this is clinical depression - but you don't sound like the clinically depressive type. Is there such a type? My thoughts would be that there is, and you aren't it.
But it's good to see your LJ post, which is at least a sign that you're turning your anger into a spleen venting rant, and not balling it up to throw at the cats.
Yeah I think the wine might have magnified/prompted my rant somewhat. Id had a really bad week and had a fight with Deb and was feeling a bit sorry for myself.
I do know i get snappy quite easily but i dont think that normally id feel as strongly as i did last night.
You know what? People suck. It's plain and simple. These days I feel scared to say anything remotely negative about my life or whatever because no matter what I do or say or how I express it I feel as if people are judging me. And after a while, you get really tired of being judged and just start lying. A lot. Anyway, that's just me.
I dunno. Who the hell reacts properly to things anyway? I reckon we all just do what we're capable of in a situation and hope for the best. And our friends are the people who accept us even with limitations. Which everyone has.
Blah, blah, blah. I just don't think you sound crazy. You just sound like someone who has had a crappy week and has had to suffer the indignity of interacting with the homo sapiens during it.
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You made some valid points and nailed it quite well, i dont have good stress tolerance at the moment. I dont actually feel quite as bad as my email normally and I think to a degree the wine I had last night magnified it.
Id had a bad week and a big run in with my friend Deb and was feeling down. Deb dumped it on me that I am Madam Shouty/snippy when ever she says stuff, so now she just doesnt say anything, when in fact she should. I personally think its her issue because she should just tell me to shut the hell up or let me know im doing it. Mind you, you've probably heard the crap that comes out of her mouth sometimes LOL!
I do think, though, that if I start feeling like i did last night, normally/everyday, that's when I'll march on down to my doctor. :)
Thanks for the advice though, Min.xxx
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Was there something specific that's happened recently that's making you think this? Your work emails don't seem to have changed in tone or subject. As to whether you're overreacting to people, it's impossible for me to say. I don't remember you being quick to anger, or even getting angry a lot - so clearly that's changed in the last few months.
Red might be right in that this is clinical depression - but you don't sound like the clinically depressive type. Is there such a type? My thoughts would be that there is, and you aren't it.
But it's good to see your LJ post, which is at least a sign that you're turning your anger into a spleen venting rant, and not balling it up to throw at the cats.
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Yeah I think the wine might have magnified/prompted my rant somewhat. Id had a really bad week and had a fight with Deb and was feeling a bit sorry for myself.
I do know i get snappy quite easily but i dont think that normally id feel as strongly as i did last night.
No special jackets needed just yet ;P
Min.xxx
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I dunno. Who the hell reacts properly to things anyway? I reckon we all just do what we're capable of in a situation and hope for the best. And our friends are the people who accept us even with limitations. Which everyone has.
Blah, blah, blah. I just don't think you sound crazy. You just sound like someone who has had a crappy week and has had to suffer the indignity of interacting with the homo sapiens during it.
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I think the wine was talking to a large degree too. "I know, ill air my dirty laundry in public"
LOL! Cheers. Min.xxx
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