You know how I get when I haven't had my coffee yet.

[minorpianokeys]

So, I'm heading back to Santa Fe.
Look back then look away.
Way that blue sky fades, feels like I'm running away.
Baby, I know you see just how hard it is for me.
To unpack clothes and shoes and stay right here with you.It seems like this was easier when I was younger. The blank page didn't intimidate me like it does now. Perhaps because I know

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[shychick72]

I find it amazing that fear has the ability to stop me in my tracks. I've always needed some external push, a catalyst, to get me to do the things I fear. Driving being the biggest one. When I finally got a job in Portland, I didn't have a choice. I had my licence (only cause Mel pushed me), but now I had to start driving. Now in my wise old age (ha!) when I'm aware that fear is stopping me from something (and that isn't always the case now is it) I try and decide if I would regret whatever it is I'm not doing. Mostly this is just social situations, like talking to someone, but generally if the answer is yes (and it almost always is) it pushes me to act. You wrote this entry like a week ago and it seems like you've started to make changes and are happier (yay!). The hard part is figuring out what you want and what makes you happy. The scary part is actually going for it. I'm hoping to find out what the easy part is, but I suspect the easy thing is not doing anything, which kind of sucks in the end.

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