Soul gone. Brain out ( Read more... )

Playlist. Genki in Surreh!

Robert Francis - Junebug
White Lies - Death (Crystal Castles Remix)
Delphic - Halcyon
Dixie Chicks - Easy Silence
Black Kids - I’m Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You
Bloc Party - Blue Light (Engineers ‘Anti-Gravity’ Mix)
Alex Metric - It Starts
Girls - Lust for Life
Late of the Pier - Best In The Class
The Pretty ( Read more... )

I love our garden sometimes. There's a really adorable black bird hopping around at the moment as I sit with the cool evening air passing through the living room. A radio somewhere in the garden, forgotten but still chattering away. The XX's husky vocals mixing with the indecipherable mumbles. This is peace. You can even smell it in the air ( Read more... )

Deleting me on facebook. Real smooth. Ok, I shouldn't react. But after doing the whole 'we haven't spoken in ages' and then deleting me? Wow, that's nice and friendly and all. Now to tell myself to 'man the fuck up'.

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The feeling of exhaustion is quite welcome here. It means I'm doing something with this endless in between time. I might complain about the unpaid manual labour I'm doing, but it's keeping me occupied. I might actually tip over the edge if left to be bored at home. Teachers at my mum's work keep asking me if I'm regretting offering to help paint ( Read more... )

I feel like my world is falling apart. I'm suspicious that my dad may actually be an alcoholic now, dependent on alcohol, and I'm scared that my brother may be suicidal or homicidal. This is ridiculous and I don't know how to deal with it. It's tough enough dealing with life as a teenager, let alone worrying that you're abandoning your family if ( Read more... )

Annoyed because we haven't spoken in a while? Because you never bothered to reply to me. For fuck's sake. Leave me alone, I'm supposed to have 3 bloody months free of you, and yet here you are again, rubbing your fucking happiness in my face. Yes I might seem annoyed, I'm allowed to be annoyed, I'm allowed to be bitter and torn up. I'm allowed to ( Read more... )

Relieved, released from some kind of chain? Or really really really upset ( Read more... )

Kind of weird, I was really looking forward to coming home. To be where I feel safe, even if I hate the place most of the time. I think was unconciously expecting to spend time with my family, but unfortuantely I managed to forget my parents were going to France for the weekend which was why I was coming home - to watch the house and try to ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm doing. I'm too confused and messed up and stressed.

My skin is horrible, I've put on more weight and I just generally feel hideous.

I could go for a haircut... Hmmm....