my current cf dr will not let me have surgery ( Read more... )

i am not being admitted to the hospital ( Read more... )

having the endolymphatic sac enhancement surgery done on my left ear ( Read more... )

going to the ear dr in a couple hours
i hope he has something positive to say

all i wanna know is:
what did i do?
what did i do to deserve this
why is god hiding his face from me
i talk to him and he does not answer back
i cry and i hear nothing
the pain in my ears is so bad
i cannot even concentrate well at all
i feel such despair and depression
what did i do?

does anyone really give a crap?
i mean really.......
this whole fiasco continues to go downhill
and all that happens is i keep getting yelled at

someone should have really warned me that the ( Read more... )

im tired
im really tired
ive been fighting so hard for over a year now
i got off ivs 4 weeks ago and my lungs are in the toilet again
im so tired
and i cant sleep unless i take all those dang pills
and im still tired all day long
im tired
i am sick of being tired

i just wrote an entry and the thing went wacky ( Read more... )

NOW IVE GOT a nasty cold
and i cant sleep it off during the day
my vision is worse than ever
i am still plugging along