idk. bye.
I didn't really want to make this post and I kept on putting it off for the longest time, but the truth is that I'm no longer writing fics. I no longer feel any inspiration or motivation whatsoever, I'm rarely reading fics or even on livejournal anymore. For so long I desperately tried to get my groove back on (so lame) aka trying prompts on tumblr, fic challenges, duets with other writers, etc. And yet, here I sit, unable to even comprehend what forms a good sentence. So, I guess this is a goodbye post.
I'm not leaving the fandom, but I find that I'm...drifting...away and as much as I dislike it, it's just the way it is. I won't be deleting this journal (no matter how much I despise this horrid username (WHAT WAS I THINKING?)) nor will I be leaving jong2min. It's just...there's too much irl that needs my attention right now.
When I first started writing; oh god, who remembers that monster of a fic? I remember babysitting for my neighbours and bringing my laptop because I simply had to write, I needed to finish it. And then I fell in love with creating the sentences, developing characters, living the scenes with the protagonist. There's so many things I haven't wrote yet, worlds that I haven't created. I know it's only fanfiction and this all sounds so stupid (I wrote porn more than 99% of the time), but it's all the same to me.
Writing is a brilliant outlet but it no longer holds the sanctuary that I yearn for. Maybe in the future I'll pick it back up, maybe one day I'll be so hugely inspired that I'll write a 60k chaptered fic and upload it all at once! But as of yet, there's nothing.
I've met a lot of great people on here and it's been a fantastic experience. I'm really going to miss you! I hope that some most of you will keep in touch, either send me messages here or chat to me on twitter, and hopefully from time to time I'll pop in to read some fics. But this is most likely the last post I'll ever make here.
Goodbye.
tl;dr not writing anymore xo