i feel like doing a life update... lets say... from june to now ( Read more... )

its soooo hard for me to keep my mouth shut and be so chill sometimes.

almost too hard. like perhaps i could break at the seams at any moment.

then i realize why i have the friends i do and how awesome they are... and how there for me they are.

then i feel okay...

for now.

Well, Today is the 15th.
And you know what that means,
Time to sit and go through boxes of old pictures.
See if I can bring myself to,
The brink of giving up,
I never follow through, you tell me all the time.

Spend my days looking back,
And I wonder if you're looking up,
From underneath someone who is able to be, everything that I'm not.

I'm visiting that ( Read more... )

so i was thinking ( Read more... )

i've had people tell me a lot that i'm a strong person and i get through things much better than others. well i tossed and turned all night and woke up not feeling strong at all. if anything, i feel rather weak.

Daily Pisces Forecast
Overview: An enormous problem will work itself out if you back off. That doesn't mean you can't apply a gentle ( Read more... )

i've come from a two hour conversation, saying everything i needed to say and getting everything off of my chest possible, and feeling like hell. i dont think i've ever cared so much for a person, and what makes it worse is the simple fact that they cant feel it back. do you understand how that can make a person feel? especially when that person is ( Read more... )

new journal... i'll work on it later...