I freak out on the people who are closest to me and deserve it the least. Then I cry because I'm such an asshole and I'm afraid I'm driving them away. Drinking is also a standard. Smoking was a big one, but that's gone now.
When I'm trying not to be self-destructive, though, I work out. It really does help. As does singing. Playing with animals and taking trail walks, too. And if the stress is about anything other than money -- massage.
god, i wish money wasn't the biggest part of the problem. but, it is. but, i've got all this emotional shit going on, too. like, my ex just came out to me as bisexual. in love with a guy, yet still madly in love with me. i guess. he was hammered, so now he's shut down and shut me out again
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I'm so sorry everything seems to have piled up on you at once, sweetie. Some things -- like crappy family and messed up exes -- there's not much you can do about. Just try and concentrate on what you *can* do, and don't forget to take care of yourself.
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but I'm southern, so it's ok.
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Then I cry because I'm such an asshole and I'm afraid I'm driving them away.
Drinking is also a standard. Smoking was a big one, but that's gone now.
When I'm trying not to be self-destructive, though, I work out. It really does help. As does singing. Playing with animals and taking trail walks, too. And if the stress is about anything other than money -- massage.
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I'm so sorry everything seems to have piled up on you at once, sweetie. Some things -- like crappy family and messed up exes -- there's not much you can do about. Just try and concentrate on what you *can* do, and don't forget to take care of yourself.
*SQUEEZE*
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