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pg-13 | cinhae & hyukhae
inspired by/lyrics to rhianna's 'unfaithful'
"every day his smile would falter."
Whipped cream that was seperated into thin wisps with a knife. That was what the sky looked like. The blue behind, above, and around the clouds was so bright and pure. Two birds soared through the sky, almost looking like they were chasing each other.
The long grass he was lying on was tickling his cheek as it rocked back and forth in the wind. His hand curled in a thick patch of it, and he exhaled deeply. Some laid down next to him, and took his other hand.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that this guy is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true
"What're you thinking about?" Hyukjae asked him, tucking some hair behind his ear.
"Nothing. Just looking at the sky."
"You think too much," he observed, and his eyes skirted across Donghae's face. Feeling a smile tug at the corner of his lips, Donghae faced away from his object of affection. The wind howled as it pulled at his shirt, as if beckoning for him to follow it. He wished he could.
There was no way that Donghae could tell Hyukjae that he was thinking of somebody else.
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
The glasses tinkled as the waiter brought them over to the table, both sporting a lime. When the waiter placed them down on the table, he flashed a smile to Donghae, who tore his gaze from the window to smile back.
Across from him, Hyukjae perused through a menu, a small frown on his face. There was something about the way Hyukjae made these faces, and it made Donghae want to laugh because it was so cute.
His smile dissolved when he saw Heechul heading over to another table near them.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
"H-Hey, Hyuk, I'm not feeling very well. I think I'm gonna go," Donghae announced, stuttering as he quickly stood up. "Go ahead and eat without me, though. I'll see you at home." He couldn't bare to see the confused look on Hyukjae's face, so Donghae simply smiled at him, touched his hand lightly, and took off as fast as he could without looking like he was running.
Outside, the fresh air greeted him harshly, berating against his face angrily as if to say 'How could you?'. Donghae teetered to one side and crashed into a brick wall, closing his eyes tightly.
'I'm sorry, Hyuk.'
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
The only sounds in the room were Hyukjae's soft sighs, and the ticking of the clock. Sitting over by the window, Donghae glanced at Hyukjae's sleeping form, smiling to himself at how sweet he looked. Then his cellphone started vibrating in his pocket, and he pulled it out to see a text of 'r u coming down?'
Hesitation claimed Donghae for a few seconds, until he replied with a quick text of 'i'll be down in 5'. The cellphone was tucked away, and the small brunet slid off the window sill. Crawling onto the bed as gently as he could, he kissed Hyukjae's brow softly.
The front door slammed shut two minutes later.
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
People seemed to stare at him accusingly as he made his way down the sidewalk to Heechul's car. Donghae yanked the door open and slid inside, putting on his practiced smile when Heechul murmured "Hey baby" and leaned over to kiss him. The kiss that was initiated lasted longer than Donghae thought, and he whimpered against Heechul's mouth when he couldn't breathe anymore.
"Chul, come on, I need air."
Heechul smirked playfully, turning the steering wheel to veer off onto the road. "Do you, now? Sorry 'bout that. I'm just happy to see you." They shared a timid smile, and Donghae dropped his elbow onto the armrest to stare out of the window.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
The rain felt so comforting, sliding down the crevices of Donghae's body, soaking him to the bone. Underneath him, the front steps to his house felt hard and angular, having been sitting there so long. People dashed by the get cover from the rain, some just calmly walked past with an umbrella.
There was a hand on Donghae's shoulder, and he tilted his head back to see Hyukjae laughing. "Hae, if you wanted a shower, you could have stayed inside. Come on," he offered the hand to Donghae, and smiled so sweetly that Donghae didn't hesitate in taking the hand, and tugging himself to his feet.
His love
His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)
"Hae..." was the whisper as Hyukjae stroked his hands down the side of Donghae's face. The brunet mewled and tilted his head up to meet Hyukjae's lips, curling his fingers into the fabric of the taller boy's t-shirt. Through the dark, neither could see where they were going, but eventually the two toppled onto the bed, with Hyuk on top.
Hands slid through hair, across toned abdomen's, over silky skin. Donghae laid himself flat on the mattress, so Hyukjae could crawl on top of him, their lips still locked. A moan escaped from someone, they didn't know who, but when Donghae's phone started ringing, they broke apart. It rung two more times, before Hyukjae frowned.
"Shouldn't you get that?"
"It's no one, Hyuk," Donghae pleaded breathily, lacing his fingers behind Hyukjae's neck and tugging him down for another kiss.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Sobs echoed off the walls of the small bathroom, bouncing back to Donghae, who sat up against the wall, his knees against his chest, his hands up to his face. Tears leaked through his fingertips, and he coughed violently before he sobbed again.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."
I... I love you.