misery.

it's rainy. i am kinda in love with it.
i didn't want to get out of bed today. i was a restless sleeper last night. wide-awake at 3 am. now i am snoozy.
things are all of a sudden strange in my head/life. people are back in the area. friends are returning and i am at a loss about how to...be. i don't know where i fit in. and i am feeling nostalgic ( Read more... )

i can't type without making spelling mistakes today.
maybe it's because i am reading everything is illuminated, and the broken english translates into my inability to write a cohesive sentence.

tonight, board games and booze. i wanna get sloshed because i don't have to work tomorrow morning (yee-fuckin'-haw).

at the museum...again ( Read more... )

why is the morning so sad sometimes? sometimes i just feel...empty.

eric is leaving today. it's sad. he's pretty much my favorite thing here. with the exception of lucy, and anyone reading this...heh. no, really. eric is my top-notch-gonna-be-husband(12 years)-and big-daddy-to-my-babies-maybe. we'll see. he's the good shit. i'm sad sad sad ( Read more... )

i've been messing with my journal. it kinda makes me want to throw up.

so, cole purchased lucy and i paid memberships for our 2 month anniversary. i don't ever remember celebrating a 2 month anniversary before. there was such fanfare. i suppose for a relationship this good, everyday is like a celebration...hehehe ( Read more... )

cole is...brilliant.
ooh! look at that purple! look at that orange....
brilliant, i tell you.

this, my friends, has been a long week ( Read more... )