Wedding Dreams
I keep having bad dreams about the wedding; almost exclusively, they're about me forgetting things or people (including E) forgetting to come, and me being very chill about everything until some breaking point.
Last night was a really vivid one; my maid of honor was trying on my dress and reassuring me that it was pretty, but for the first time I noticed it had all these black accent buckles and was not at all attractive. I decided it would be fine, though, and started trying to put on makeup--and realized I'd left most of it at someone else's house. My MOH started making fun of me for being so fixated on getting the makeup back, and I snapped at her, "Well, what would YOU have done?" "Just slapped on some blush and been fine with it," she said calmly. Ok, I was not really fine with that, but it was true, the wedding could go on whether or not I had foundation on. Then I looked at the clock and it was 3:30, and the wedding was supposed to have started at 3, but no one had shown up yet--and then I realized I'd forgotten about the time difference, and it was really 6:30, and there was no chance of getting people to come back.
Finally, though, I decided to go through with it anyway, and just hoped that our parents would still be around. I woke up, though, before I found out if E had come, or if our parents were still there.
Maybe these dreams are preparing me for the real thing, where of course I'll have to say, "Oops! Oh well" about fifty thousand times. It will only be an actual disaster if our parents can't come, or if E can't/doesn't come (a couple dreams ago, he was engrossed in a card game and couldn't be bothered).
But I'm off to enjoy the day! Have a good rest of your weekend ^.^
Last night was a really vivid one; my maid of honor was trying on my dress and reassuring me that it was pretty, but for the first time I noticed it had all these black accent buckles and was not at all attractive. I decided it would be fine, though, and started trying to put on makeup--and realized I'd left most of it at someone else's house. My MOH started making fun of me for being so fixated on getting the makeup back, and I snapped at her, "Well, what would YOU have done?" "Just slapped on some blush and been fine with it," she said calmly. Ok, I was not really fine with that, but it was true, the wedding could go on whether or not I had foundation on. Then I looked at the clock and it was 3:30, and the wedding was supposed to have started at 3, but no one had shown up yet--and then I realized I'd forgotten about the time difference, and it was really 6:30, and there was no chance of getting people to come back.
Finally, though, I decided to go through with it anyway, and just hoped that our parents would still be around. I woke up, though, before I found out if E had come, or if our parents were still there.
Maybe these dreams are preparing me for the real thing, where of course I'll have to say, "Oops! Oh well" about fifty thousand times. It will only be an actual disaster if our parents can't come, or if E can't/doesn't come (a couple dreams ago, he was engrossed in a card game and couldn't be bothered).
But I'm off to enjoy the day! Have a good rest of your weekend ^.^