My cat Mirri is dead... I am so sad... who would have ever thought someone could hurt so much over a little cat...I never expected to see him dead, hit by a car in the middle of the road *crying* it just hurts so much...

I told my ex that I did not want to waste his time and told him straight up that I did not to go back out with him and never will. He told me okay and I could hear him cursing in the back ground. Mostly I feel relief but I also feel remorse. Right now I am watching pitch black, love that movie. Went to the mall today, it was alright, just ( Read more... )

I have come to a relization that there are too many airheads in this school. I wish that people would just stop gossiping for one day and maybe I will get some peace. My eyes hurt... I wish I could close them for just one moment... this has been a very stressful week for me.

yesterday one of my ex-boyfriends showed up at my door, trying to resurect our relationship. After all the shit he has put me through he just keeps on coming back. I love him still but I will never get back with him and I think he knows that. He says he has straightened up for the better now and I told him I don't want a boyfriend that drinks to ( Read more... )

First, I am going to cast a few protection spells and then I think I will go meet up with a friend today and get seriously drunk...

nothing...

Had a dream about a guy I used to know... I miss him alot, I have not seen the man in almost a year. So I am just going to sit back and listen to my Enya.

Sometimes I think that I have absolutly no social life... or I just hide from it. I feel so damn content in being left alone most of the time that when I look back at the times I do spend my hours alone I see how lonely I was and how I am now... lonely. I am so afraid to loose the people I love, my friends... sure family will always be there but ( Read more... )

not hungry, not happy, not sad, totally indifferent to the outside worlds at the moment except my journal... and I have absolutly nothing to write but that fact that I mad choc. chip cookies last night and I intend to have one.

Sometimes I think people say I am weird as if its a bad thing...