Two ends.
Part 1
it can`t have been
but just the thought of it
hits him with the force of vulcano under his skin.
“Hey Seung wake up!”Junhyung spat out as he tried to nudge the figure who was asleep in front of him.Nevertheless,the boy just moved a little ,the white sheet tangling in between his feet.Tossled hair,sticking in all directions and limbs trapped under the pillow.
Junhyung groaned.
“Get up,get up.Get up .Get up”The brown haired boy shook Hyunseung over and over.
Finally an eye cracked open,the sunlight dancing from the sleepy eyes down to the pale skin of Hyunseung`s bare shoulder.
“I was dreaming”He half-moaned.
“Really?”Junhyung`s eyebrow arched in a cocky expression and Hyunseung nodded entusiastically,thinking that this was an invitation to babble about it.
That`s until Junhyung cut him out with an indifferent “I don`t care.” and he dragged his feet away from the baffled roommate to the kitchen.Hyunseung sighed and soon he heard the sound of running water and dishes been put in the sink.
Hyunseung pushed the cover aside and shuffled to the source of the noises.He put his arm on the door frame,sustaining himself as he stopped and watched the other`s back.Broad shoulders under an old gray t-shirt ,large enough to hide the flexing of shoulder blades.Hyunseung had always had a skin and bones fetish.He liked seeing a patch of skin displayed unintentionally,just the glimpse of it had such an erotic feel to him.He wanted to kiss and touch it,feel it under his fingers.About bones.He liked to crack them...
“Hey ,you were in it.”Hyunseung`s voice came rougher than usual ,probably because of his unnatural sleeping habits.He couldn`t go to sleep if the window was not open,with the car honking and traffic sounds in his ear.While Junhyung nagged about this annoying habit,because he always had cold hands and “You`ll catch a cold and die like that Hyunseung”
“You where moaning in my ear:Fuck me “Hyunseung whispered in the other`s ear ,one of his hands sneaking down Junhyung`s stomach and Junhyung`s breath hitched because his brain didn`t register when Hunseung crossed the space between them.
“And that`s why that was a dream .That will never happen in real life.”It was an edge of annoyance in Junhyung`s calm voice when he said that.
“Oh .You`re so boring.”Hyunseung laughed and slapped his roomate`s ass.Then he took a seat on the chair and waited for his coffee.
Junhyung took the mugs and placed one in front of the other boy and then he sat too,at the other end of the table.
“Hyuna called,she said something about go shopping “Junhyung was first to make conversation ,but his eyes scanned the girl on the news,she wore a horrible christmas themed sweater,he thought.As he wasn`t watching,he missed how Hyunseung`s eyes got sparkly at the sound of the word “shopping”.That`s why he was surprised when he heard the screeching of the chair on the floor,as Hyunseung abruptly stood up and rushed to the bedroom.
“He left the door open again”Junhyung thought out loud and he sighed.He could see the other boy heading to the closet picking up random clothes and tossing them to the bed.
“Don`t make a mess again”Junhyung thereatened.
“Shut up.I`ll buy you a pair of glasses.”Hyunseung mumbled as he tried to get his head out of the black t-shirt .He then heard the younger`s chuckle,a rough throatty sound and he could piture Junhyung leaning with his chair,feet on the edge of the table,head tilting back.
“Fair enough right?”Hyunseung smirked as he let his pyjama bottom slid down and he grabbed a pair of black jeans.
Hyunseung has such a small waist,Junhyung thought watching the other`s back.Hyuna has a small waist too.
“They deserve each other”Junhyung hummed.Then he added:”Crazy shopping addicts.”
“I heard that.”Hyunseung shouted from the other room,hands busy with his jeans` zipper.
“Like it isn`t true.”Junhyung responded ,switching his gaze back to the TV and flipping the channels.
“Who taught you that a rocker doesn`t have to wear only black to be rock-ish?”Hyunseung said as his butt entered
Junhyung`s vision and the refrigerator door blocked the Tv entirely as the boy opened in to grab a bottle of juice.
“I wouldn`t drink that if I was you.”The corners of Junhyung`s lips turned up and Hyunseung scrunched his nose in approval.
“Ok .I`m going.”Hyunseung announced and got a “Kiss your girlfriend from me”.
Just before he closed the door,his head appeared from the other side and he looked at Junhyung with an evil glint in his eyes.”She would like that.”
Junhyung laughed.
“Threesome tonight?”Hyunseung asked.
“Not my cup of cake.”
“Nothing is your cup of cake Junhyung.You suck.”
“No.Do you really have to talk from the hall?”
“Yes i`m informing the neighbours that you`re single.Maybe you`ll finally get laid.”
Junhyung`s slipper hit the door and Hyunseung closed the door not before he sticked his tongue out.
*
It`s not his concern,Junhyung thought as he tossed his unfinished coffee in the sink and went to change.He took a black t-shirt,black hoodie and jeans black.”Ha!”He said like Hyunseung was in front of him and mocking him about his non coloristic attire.He then went to the bathroom.His fingers pressed in his hair,styling it in a red tent.He touched his face on both sides and looked as his piercing glinted in the mirror just below his lip.
“Eww you should get rid of it Junhyung.You`re not attracting any chicks with that my friend.You`ll get skin rash.”He replayed Hyunseung`s words in his mind uncousciously.
“I should get a tattoo.”Junhyung smirked.
He took his jacket and keys and after closing the front door with a thud he rushed on the stairs greeting the grandma on the second floor.
He wasn`t exactly in the mood for anything but of course he had to go to the university.It wasn`t fair that his childhood friend Hyunseung was 4 years older than him and didn`t have to attend the shitty classes with him.Junhyung couldn`t even imagine how teachers let Hyunseung pass every year.He knew that his friend had a sharp tongue with anyone.Really anyone.And didn`t study at all.Well at least not the things he had to study for college.Hyunseung stood all day with big books about anatomy in his hands and at times ,when Junhyung was still struggling with-damn highschool maths- the other will babble out nonsense-
“Similar to the lack of spatial perspective, the sufferer of Alice in Wonderland Syndrome also loses a sense of time. That is, time seems to pass very slowly, akin to an LSD experience.”Hyunseung read out with a serious tone,a dark hint in it.
“Is that right Junhyung?”
“How should i know?”Junhyung muttered.
“LSD”Hyunseung retorted doing a snorting notion.
“I don`t do drugs”Junhyung explained.
“Sure you don `t.”Hyunseung said entertained.”You don`t get laid,don`t drink alcohol,don`t shop,don`t smoke.”
“You`re saying it like it`s a bad thing.”Junhyung wondered as he scribbled on his notebook.
“You`re never happy.”Hyunseung dramatized.
“You never came to my concerts.”
“Hmpf.”Hyunseung shrugged his shoulders and continued with his book.
Junhyung was thinking about it when he saw Dojoon`s back on the street.He quickened his pace and soon he reached the other.
‘Hey.”
‘Hey.”Dojoon replied and they both entered the garage full of instruments.The others were already there.
“Ow look who`s here.What did your girlfriends held the two of you up?”
“No way,G.Na.Junhyung doesn`t swing that way.”Zico replied.
“You shut up.I wasn`t talking to you.Did he try anything new Jun?”She wiggled her eyebrows and hew hands slided down the mic in an obscene motion.
“Maybe .”Junhyung smirked.G.Na was always entertaining.He couldn`t even think what it would mean if she lived with them.
“Aaaa.”She stomped on the floor frustrated.”Tell me !Tell me!Tell me!”
“Yes Junhyung,tell us.”Zico encouraged,holding out his laughter.
“ Later.”Dojoon said seriously.”Practice now!”
Everyone else groaned and the last thing before the sound of strumming the chords was Junhyung`s chuckle.
*
They finished practice ,sweat covering the boys` necks and G.Na`s pretty forehead.They played and replayed old songs-reminded them of autumn and something-nostalgic.And new songs, of course with Junhyung`s verses which sounded so real with G.Na`s strong voice.
“Turn me on my baby”G.Na started humming.Then she suddenly bursted out:”Let`s party tonight!”
“No.”They replied not even sparing her a glance.Junhyung was tired,all he wanted was to drop on his couch,after a hot shower.
“C`mon!”She pleaded.Then added,her lips in a chesire cat like grin.”I`ll show you my tits.”
“Ok.”Zico answered fast and Dojoon laughed.
Poor boy, gets fooled every time,Junhyung thought.But they haven`t gone out in ages.And they usually just go for a beer and get pizza so it was fine with him.No clubs,crowded places and loud shitty music that didn`t let room for any conversation.
“Fine.”Junhyung said.And G.Na started jumping around.
They were a strange crowd.All dressed in black.They have a different air around them so people stood aside.Some thought that the guys were rebellious teenagers,always ready to throw fist,especially Zico which had a frowning habit.Some wanted to approach G.Na but backed off when Dojoon caught their gazes and placed a hand on her shoulder.She smiled everytime and whispered “Thanks,baby”.
“Heeey.”Gayoon,the female bartender from “The Room” greeted them,when her eyes sweeped over the 4 who just entered the restaurant.She was an old friend .
G.Na was acting like a child.She runned off to hug her friend,stating loud:”Thanks god,these guys were boring.”
Gayoon hugged her back.”Of course.Guys.”She replied ,rolling her eyes ,emphasizing the last word.
They stood down and soon Gayoon brought them 4 beers.Since it was Monday night ,there weren`t many customers so she joined them.
“Let`s play a drinking game”She chirped.
Everyone approved.Junhyung randomly thought how he`ll go home today.
“I`ve never…”Gayoon went first.”Liked Dojoon.”
“Hey!”He replied,offended.
“Congrats unnie.Now everyone has to drink.”
“Hey!”Dojoon nudged G.Na with his hand while everybody else was laughing.
It was Dojoon`s turn.
“I`ve never…kissed a guy.”Dojoon said ,earning a disapproving glance from G.Na.He smiled and ran his hand through his hair.
“I`ve never…told the person I liked that I like her.”Zico stated and everyone`s eyes were immediately on him.
“Whaaaat?”G.Na said a little too loud as Zico turned his head away to hide his blush.
“Are you stupid?”Gayoon added.
“No.”Zico replied ,looking her straight in the eye.
“Who is it?”G.Na insisted.
“You don`t-“
“I bet it`s one of us.”Gayoon pressed and he became offensive:”What?No!”
“It`s definetly one of us.”Junhyung argued back ,smirk in place.
“Do you like Dojoon?”G.Na`s eyes were as big as the sun.”Wait .No.You said you don`t.”
“I bet is G.Na.”Gayoon said simply,watching Zico intently as she crossed her hands.
“No.”He said calmly.
“Beeeeeeep.Lying.You`re too calm”
Zico sighed and passed the bottle to Junhyung.
“I`ve never...liked anybody.”
Another uproar of “What?”.
“Like never?”Gayoon asked curiously,tilting her head.
“Wtf?”Zico and Dojoon said at the same time ,then looked at each other and bursted in to laughter.They all bursted into laughter.
The night continued like that.A little bit blury at the end as laughter mixed with a fuzzy feeling that fleeted in Junhyung`s stomach.Zico made sure G.Na went home safely,like always.And Dojoon remained with the female bartender to try and change the”I`ve never liked Dojoon” thing.
Junhyung went outside and being hit by the cold wind he regained his senses.He breathed in and watched the empty street.He didn`t have to walk for long as the restaurant was near his apartment.He saw Hyunseung`s car in the parking lot and a bunch of kids lighting joints a little further.
Junhyung tried to smoke when he was 17.It was a weird sensation,the kind that makes your brain awake and he never coughed ,even though it was his first time.Of course nobody knew about this attempt and because he didn`t understand why people get addicted to this kind of thing which tastes like nothing he quited after the first cigarette.
Junhyung tried drugs too.Yes wow.Nobody would belive that and Hyunseung would just scoff at the thought.He started with ecstasy.It was said to feel good and shit but turned out it made him anxious and he babbled a lot of nonsense.He quited drugs too.
The light was on in the apartment.Junhyung took the stairs.He opened the door to the apartment to be greated by laughter.Two voices.
“Junhyung?”A girl`s voice.
Junhyung sighed and dragged his feet to the balcony where two figures where sitting ,smoke curling in the night sky.
“Hi.”Geurim says excited.“Oh my, Seung, he looks great.”
Hyunseung nods,watching dazed the circles of smoke that leave his mouth.
“Want some?”Geurim asks,lips curling into a dazzling smile.Junhyung watched her and the weed.That innocent Hyunseung-like-face and weed.The fuck.They looks so alike.And Junhyung knows he`s a little buzzed and the sour smoke of weed is making his head dizzy.So he misses the moment Geurim sprints forward and pushes him in Hyunseung`s lap.The older yelps and Junhyung looks around disoriented.
“Shotgun him.”Geurim demands.
“What?No.”Junhyung argues ,trying to get up,but instead he lifts himself up just to fall stranddling Hyunseung.
“Hey there.”Hyunseung says,eyes half lidded as he watches Junhyung.
Junhyung chuckles at the sight.
“C`mon babe.”Hyunseung grins and Junhyung scoffs.
“H i`m not Hyuna.”
“No.”Hyunseung replies with a slap on the ass and Junhyung yepls .”No.Definetly not.”
“But i`ll get you high.”the older adds,all serious ,taking another drag of the joint and slipping his fingers through Junhyung`s lips.
Really now.Junhyung could have avoided this.But it was too late.So he just parted his lips taking in the smoke from
Hyunseung`s lips.Not touching.But they were close.
Hyunseung chuckled and pushed Junhyung.”Damn.”
Junhyung smirks and walks away,but somewhere in between reaching his room and clicking the switch ,a hand grabbed his wrist.
“He always liked you Jun.”Geurim said and the boy tried to read her expression.He didn`t know if she was joking or not because it was too dark but her tone.It was so cold.
He wanted to argue back but she left just like that.
Author Note:it`s been a long time right?^^this we`ll be a chaptered fic for lovely luvysung