My First Pregnancy... and Loss...

[carafbaby]

Originally posted by carafbabyat My First Pregnancy... and Loss...

In February 2010 the love of my life David proposed to me, in March we bought our first home and April 16th, 2011 I married my best friend. I found out in June that was I pregnant and must have convinced in May a month after we were married. We were ecstatic we had already planned on trying

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[sphyg]

Sorry for your loss. I'd consider it positive that you got pregnant so quickly and have the sonogram as a memento (neither of which I was fortunate to experience).

[carafbaby]

yes we keep that picture in our fire proof safe it is the only tangable thing i have. The only way i was able to get that done so quickly was because i went to the free clinic because i knew they immediatly did a sonogram right away, when my gyno wouldn't even see me until 12 weeks. that picture measured at 5 weeks but by my calculations i should've been more like 7, it was my first indication that something was wrong. Thank you for your comment, im new to livejournal and i am finding it very very supportive :)

[prettylilditty]

I am so sorry. You might find this site comforting. A fellow loss momma knits and sells (donating 100% of the profits) blankets fit to size babies lost early on, since we may not have anything tangible to hold. I bought 3 from her for each of my babes.

http://miscarriageblankets.blogspot.com/

[carafbaby]

That is a really neat idea, i have been wanting to have some sort of memorial for the baby. something like a birthstone ring (i would have been due in February which is also my birthmonth so an amathyst) but the thing i am the most dead set on doing is getting a tatoo, it is permanent it will always be with me, and even if other people don't know what it means I will. I am waiting to get one because we are in the process of trying again and I'm sure ink in my blood isn't the best idea right now!

[clothmother]

I am sorry for your loss, and wish you luck in the future. <3

[lynn82md]

I'm sorry for your loss. It must've been heart breaking to know you were losing the pregnancy and couldn't do nothing to stop it.

I didn't have an offical confirmation that I was pregnant before I miscarried, even though I was nearing two months late with my cycle (which I blamed the delay on recovering from surgery on my cervix...ironically that I had this day a year ago). When I would've gotten a pregnancy test, I had finally begun my period...or what I thought was my period. On the fourth day, all hell broke loose and I seriously thought it was a complication from the surgery (which I was told originally at the hospital until they got the results back from the urine sample).

When I did have a good day I felt terrible for being able to move on and guilty for not being more upset than I was.With my miscarriage, it's one of those double edge sword deals. I am sad that I loss the pregnancy. On the other hand, I'm thankful and grateful that I'm still alive because I could've died from blood loss. I loss enough where I needed a

[carafbaby]

I have never felt to helpless, the worst part was the way my Dr's office treated me. I will not be back needless to say. I understand that they deal with mc daily but i do not. they didn't even see me until after i passed the fetus, that right there says enough for me.

[lynn82md]

I hate how a doctor's office staff treats patients like that. There's already enough on a patient's mind where they don't need to be treatedly rudely and stuff by the staff. It's why my mom finally dropped her because of her staff. I felt bad for my mom because she had this woman for years as a gyno/ob (the same woman that delivered my brother and I, who I eventually had as a gyno for a bit before I moved to Sweden).

[carafbaby]

yes he had been my obgyn since i got my first period 10 almost 11 years ago! there was already so much heartbreak going on the way he treated me only made it worse. There is a dr in the area that my sis in law and a few close friends go to but the catch is he won't see you unless you are already pg.