Then looking upwards I strained my eyes and try to
tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
from the passenger seat as you are driving me home
Do they collide? I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter
all eyes are fading...sleep alone
so take you're cold, cold heart and drown. and don't forget to take deep breathes
when you said you were falling apart i thought you meant that you were falling apart.
and if i die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?
you are the worst actor that i have ever seen but if this script called for liars, you would play the lead.
so happy valentine's day, i hope you bought her roses.
so this is how you leave me? i'm broken hearted on the floor. my tears seep through the crack under my door.
you came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves. just as the best part starts, it ends so abruptly.
after dreaming of you and me, i'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved.
in case you haven't heard, i'm sick and tired of trying.
all those "i'm sorry"'s and "i miss you"'s are useless, i fucked this one up long ago.
you were the last good thing i ever saw
and all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold.
you killed a part of me tonight and left the frozen air to finish the job.
you and me, you know that we were always funny in a car crash sort of way.
it's a good thing that i haven't slept in weeks because right now, it seems that times are hard for dreamers.
even the softest words can't heal the deepest wounds.
you don't recover from a night like this
it hurts a whole lot. but it's missed when it's gone.
if i could i would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells and remove whatever makes you hurt, but i am too weak to be your cure
i can't see why i feel so lonely when you and me could be forever, perfectly perfect together.
i kill myself because i'm so frustrated, and every single second that i put it off, means another lonely night i gotta race the clock.
but how could i miscalculate. perfect lies from a perfect hate.
i'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.
you're a blue eyed lightning bolt, i'm a national phenomenon
once you said you hated my suffering and you understood and you'd take care of me. you would always be there. well where are you now?
so i prefer to be remembered as a smiling face, not this fucking wreck that's taken its place.
i have waited and i will be waiting for the pain to cure the fear.
i know i'm lazy with the little things. i mean, i never held a door. but i still loved you more than anyone since or before.
i need you like the dragonfly's wings need the wind. like the orphan needs home once again. like heaven needs more to come in
i didn't mean to make you want to leave.
if you find yourself here, on my side of town i pray that you'll come to my door, and talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about, cause i don't remember anymore.
and this is why i hate you and how i understand that no one ever knows or loves another.
i don't want to be seen as a pretty thing 'cause it's the pretty things we're always breaking.
i can hardly get myself out of this bed for fear of never lying in this bed again.
i've been trying to ignore the best parts of you but i'm still hoping that i'll be with you somehow.
forgive me but i can't be everything you deserve
but there's a few things that i just need you to know, the way i felt when we were close and how the stars explode everytime you are.
please let me take your pain away for one day
to make you laugh is all i want, i'll hold you while tears fill our eyes.
i'll be all that you need in life because i can't live without you, and i know all that you need.
then i took ten stars on sticks and placed them in my small metal bucket. i gave the other half to you so you wouldn't forget me while i'm gone.
when i look at the stars they shine of your eyes.
you're standing there alone and so am i, but i want you here by my side.
lonely hearts, shattered dreams, there's nothing better in this place, nothing but memories in your mind
how do i let go of a love that meant so much to me?
i sit and watch you leave my life forever. i know you'll be gone so long, my last words are nothing.
every single breath i take is screaming out your name.
you'd be surprised how much i think about you these days. i think of you.
you're in my heart. three thousand miles away. right from the start, you were a challenge to me.
i know, i know you can change my day. with any, anything you say
'cause anything that you do or say cannot compare to the pain that i felt, the day that you said that we'd go our separate ways.
when it's not me who's forgetting all our dreams. when it's not me who's forgetting all our, you're forgetting all our dreams.
a thousand miles seems pretty far but they've got planes and trains and cars, i'd walk to you if i had no other way.
and you didn't mean to love me back but i know you did.
i started out alone, and in the end, that's where i'll be.
meh. there's more but i'm lazy/tired & so DONE.
kthx <3