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It seems that my little outburst from the other week did nothing...perhaps pushed a few people away. I'm still confused as hell over what to do about people. I know what I want, pretty sure of what I need, but am clueless as to how to accomplish that.
I'm still having a difficult time with everything. At this point, I'm probably hanging by a thread with school. I'm more or less making my time requirements, but I'm doing very little work...just logging in to the program and letting it run while I do other things. I walked out on a test as well. I did half of it and just froze...so I left. Sad, I know.
Still fighting to keep my sanity. As usual, I'm stuck trying to deal with some of my more unstable moments alone. It seem that phones go unanswered when I try to ask for help...just to have a voice on the other end of the phone. That was last night (Tuesday)...I got stuck in a hellish manic phase for a few hours...couldn't sit still, couldn't keep a thought in my head--could only sit and rock and pace around the house.
*shakes head* So sick of this.
I'm still having a difficult time with everything. At this point, I'm probably hanging by a thread with school. I'm more or less making my time requirements, but I'm doing very little work...just logging in to the program and letting it run while I do other things. I walked out on a test as well. I did half of it and just froze...so I left. Sad, I know.
Still fighting to keep my sanity. As usual, I'm stuck trying to deal with some of my more unstable moments alone. It seem that phones go unanswered when I try to ask for help...just to have a voice on the other end of the phone. That was last night (Tuesday)...I got stuck in a hellish manic phase for a few hours...couldn't sit still, couldn't keep a thought in my head--could only sit and rock and pace around the house.
*shakes head* So sick of this.