I've made out a rough plan for my Europe trip over summer (Oz winter ( Read more... )

I am SICK of talking about love. It's FUCKING over rated. It's all sweet and nice till the ex drops in for a surprise visit and destroys everything that you've built up over the past couple of months. I am filled with hate and anger right now and I wish that Am was here to tell me that it's ok. Whatever. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I ( Read more... )

I can't decide which I hate more...my sister's comp or LJ for erasing everything I write every time the back button is accidentally pressed. *ARGH ( Read more... )

I hate when LJ fucks up and takes away the words that were running through my head but this is important and I want to remember...I'll start again ( Read more... )

There are a few moments that I hope I don't forget but know I might... cheesy Hollywood kisses, under coconut tress in the afternoon rain, the smell of jasmine flowers and the feel of the fallen petals on the driveway floor accentuated by the moonlight while taking a ciggie break alone...these are moments that inspire the need to continue my work. ( Read more... )

I had it all planned out. Dim Sum would pick me up from the airport, we'd go back to his, I'd get ready and we'd arrive early at Alexis and wait for Am to show up. I'd send over a Bellini with a note, "To the guy with the Bellini...Heard your girlfriend is out of town...can I take you home?" and either wait for his reply or saunter over to their ( Read more... )

I'm really worried...16.5 hours to go...what if either of us doesn't feel the same anymore? What if when I see him, I don't feel as if I should be there? What if he doesn't see reason for me being there? I've really got to work on this commitment thing -- I'm really bad at it. Every time someone is able to get close enough to me, I try and find a ( Read more... )

I'm finally done with my Media Comm Internship essay. *ahhh*...so tired, gotta get my stuff together...one more essay to go...less tedious than this. I am going to demand a massage tomorrow...a long one. Going to do laundry. SO fucking tired.

HL is right. Damn I'm glad I don't have drones for friends. We're speaking and Am came up in the conversation (surprise, surprise)...anyway, I happened to mention how Am said once before that he wouldn't go with a Chinese girl, that he just wasn't attracted to them. He spoke too soon I guess and a part of me has problems with him having said that. ( Read more... )

Suzzy said to me tonight, "yes, there are more beautiful girls but you have a look that people will never tire of. You don't have anything to worry about. If I were a guy, I'd go out with you. You're interesting and great to be around"...and that was perhaps one of the nicest things that anyone has ever said about me. It wasn't really what she said ( Read more... )