I feel like my parents failed my brother and I.

There, I said it.

They should never have been allowed to procreate, because we're the one's who got fucked.

So while other things in my life are currently a little less than perfect, I'm feeling like this whole relationship thing is pretty dang close. I love that we get along so well and are still able to have our separate time apart, and though each of us has already done our fair share of things to mess it up, there seem to be no signs of wavering ( Read more... )

I listen to your old music because hearing you play drums still makes me feel a connection to you in some small way. Like I didn't imagine your existence.

How fucked up am I?

I must say however that this is getting better.
It makes me less sad to think of you as the days go by.
That has to count for something.

So, I know i'm just sort of coasting. I wonder if I really set a goal for myself to move out by the beginning of the year if I could do that. I mean, i'm pretty sure that's achievable. First to pay off what I owe, maybe fix my car? And move out on my own. Preferably I want a place on my own, but i'm not opposed to a roommate and financially ( Read more... )

So today my grandma came in my room (interrupting The Next Food Network Star, mind you) and informed of a nice little tid bit ( Read more... )

There are more support groups in Los Angeles for the victims of UFO abduction than in the rest of the country combined.The trip was amazing and much, much needed. We drove up Thursday evening in my car, and I definitely came to the conclusion that i'm uncomfortable with others operating my vehicle. Going 120 mph, running red lights, frequently ( Read more... )

Today in a fit of anxiety I almost went to T-Mobile and cancelled my phone service. I don't know why i'm trying to cut everyone off. :( It seems to me that at a time like this it might be better for me to talk to and spend more time with the people closest to me in order to pull myself out of this. Everyone keeps asking if there's anything they ( Read more... )

OH MY GOSHHHHHHH...

I dislike Arizona summers, it's sooo hotttt!

Ugh, I wish it were Fall. <3

So a few weeks ago I sent a message to my dad and asked him how he felt about me possibly coming to visit this Christmas, and he never replied. Today I got a message from my brother saying he heard i'm coming out sometime around Christmas and that he's excited. Hello dad, don't you think you should maybe respond to me at some point? Thanks ( Read more... )

I'm never going to be sure if this is what I want, if you're what I want ( Read more... )