Comments | miss_ddtrixi: My heart hurts.

miss_ddtrixi

My heart hurts.

Oct 30, 2005 17:38

I could not be more ashamed of the events that took place this weekend. I signed up to be a dancer in a 36-hour dance marathon. You aren’t allowed to sit or sleep for 36 hours. I had to raise $300 to be eligible to be a dancer. At 6pm on Friday night, I was driven to the HPER, a gym in the center of campus, to sign in and get ready for the ( Read more... )

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ditzinthedark October 30 2005, 23:41:55 UTC

Aww Dana I'm sorry. I think things like that have to be accepted on a day by day basis and not in a life long way because even the strongest person will lapse on how they feel about it. I wish I could help. Hopefully better days are ahead.

~Nikki

miss_ddtrixi November 1 2005, 15:22:17 UTC

Thank you. I think that is where i need to start. I read somewhere that you do not come to terms with illnesses like mine until about 5 years after you are diagnosed. If that is the case, i have 2 years left of myself being prideful and whatnot. I hope better days are ahead too.

D

mboing7 October 31 2005, 03:21:46 UTC

dana, i love you and miss you lots. you are such a strong and amazing person and i admire you so much for doing as much as you did (even though you didnt dance the whole time, you contributed your time, energy, and effort, and that is what counts ultimately). i know there's probably not a whole lot that i can say that will make you feel better, but if you need to talk, i'm just a phone call away. :)

miss_ddtrixi November 1 2005, 15:23:59 UTC

thank you. i know that contributing something is better than nothing, it just wasnt something i was prepared to hear i guess. but these things happen. i cant wait to see you over tgb. :)

gran_odalisque October 31 2005, 04:40:14 UTC

i loooooove youuuuuu.

miss_ddtrixi November 1 2005, 15:25:01 UTC

smooooooooochies!
i miss you al! you are wonderful!

anonymous November 5 2005, 23:33:20 UTC

Dana, you are a strong person, whether or not you've come to terms with your sickness. And you will, I can tell. My mom has had MS for more than half of her life, and she still hasn't come to terms with it, in spite of how she can't walk at all without something to support her weight (i.e. walker or cane), how she often has problems thinking of words, and how she sometimes has problems with her vision. She isn't quite strong enough to accept it, but you are. The fact that you're acknowlegding that you haven't come to terms with your sickness, and that you should, pretty much just reinforces that you will.

Anyway, I hope you're coming to Wassail! December 18!

-Tory

P.S. Your mom bought a pizza from me, and that's awesome.

miss_ddtrixi November 14 2005, 23:32:52 UTC

Haha, main street pizza...my favorite!! Thank you tory, that is really very meaningful. I hope i will get over it at some point. But unfortunately, i dont think i have yet...one day though.
I never knew your mom has MS. That must have been difficult to grow up with. But that is an experience you should never let slip away from you. Parents who have medical problems seem to make their children grow up stronger.
I hope all is well with you. Hope Shaully isnt killing you too quickly! Unfortunately, i cant come back for wassail, but i will be home from the 25th to the 2nd, so we should hang out then:)
Much love doll!
Dana