god damn.  last night was fucking insane.

i got in ANOTHER accident...

im just glad claire and i are okay...

considering her car flipped like 4 times...

ah.

this makes me rethink a lot of things.

puts a lot into perspective.

<3

i constantly find myself wanting a relationship...

...but i really cant handle one.

i've ruined so many friendships because i've tried to make it into something it would never become.

and that sucks.  i cant just force myself to like someone because i think its going to go somewhere.

i realize now that im not always right for the person i become ( Read more... )

words of advice:

never go for flakey guys.

work is so slow.  i hate it sometimes.

you'd think that being busy would make the time go by faster- it does.  but i'd much rather be slow than busy.  i dont know, im weird like that.  i dont have to do much that way... haha

its 2:30...and i get to close at 4!! yayyyyy

this weekend was cool i guess.  er...the last two weeks anyways.

i met matt, hes ( Read more... )

damnit.

i hate working nights.

it sucks my ass

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i get to see matthew on friday!

hes one weird motherfuck!

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Bipolar II:  If you have bipolar II, you will experience depression just as in bipolar I. However, the episodes of mania are less severe (hypomania). Bipolar II is more common in women. People with bipolar II have more depressive than hypomanic episodes.

Bipolar Disorder causes extreme mood swings, from feeling overly energetic (mania) to feeling ( Read more... )

i didnt know someone had THAT much of an impact on my moods.

just like that, im happy again.

i dont get it.

..at all.

so sunday i guess im hanging out with aron.  thank god i got sunday off!  it should be a good time, hes fun to be around.

i guess when i came back to emerald city, i wasnt expecting to meet anyone.  he said it was fate, i say it was ( Read more... )

when she leaves you in a month...

it's going to happen.

im not writing this to see if anything else could happen, cause i've done it three times to you.  im not expecting it to.

im not even sure why im writing this.

i was at the beach today and i got to thinking...

i have emotional baggage.  and i carry it with me to whomever i get involved with.  and then they get the shaft cause i can't handle a ( Read more... )

just thinking about it makes me want to vomit.

but a good vomit.

dim needs to be happy.

and i feel like shes going to be happy in the end.

god this is just like in some corny movie.. hahah

ahhhhh what am i doing with you!!!