I decided to tell Elena through a super long text that I want to wait to be friends again until her relationship is okay, and although I know it was the right decision I couldn't be more depressed about it right now. I feel as if I've fallen down a black hole, perhaps more depressed about my decision than anything I've ever been depressed about ( Read more... )

   A deep dark cloud settled over my evening and I thought of Elena out of the blue, something about her boyfriend giving her trouble in a way that would shape our current friendship. I felt it in my heart, but told myself I was just being a jealous single person even though I'm mostly happy being in my world with just me..or at least I am so far. ( Read more... )

  Write, write, write. I'm not going to do anything I shouldn't. I'm just going to write like always ( Read more... )

   I was supposed to go out with Stef and Megan and basically the whole shabang of us to dinner tonight, but it turns out I'm too exhausted from being sick and am just seeing Elena and my family to eat some ice cream cake. I had really, really wanted to go out and see everyone, too ( Read more... )

    There are some people in life whom may come and go, but are nonetheless a constant healing presence through the times, helping you always to become more whole as the years pass by. I could be lost in my life or across the sea on the other side of the world, but there has never been a time in which I could not feel Elena's unconditional love for ( Read more... )

   My reading with Chris Dufrense got rescheduled for Friday because he had a family emergency, which thankfully was not Sylvia! I hope everyone else is okay. After I got my hair done for my photo shoot tommorow, I took a nap ( Read more... )

   My mother drove me to Target this morning even though I was laid up on the front seat with heart pains and weakness spreading like the fucking plague throughout my body. I felt one step away from death, yet the whole world seemed to call me at once, the sun dormant in my pores and magic cutting impossibly through the dark to tell me I would find ( Read more... )