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[miss_like]

Operation: Move David And Anna To Birmingham proceeds. There is, however, one tiny small stumbling block in the road; Me. I am incapable of sorting my shit out. I am stressing about everything, and so far have failed to apply for the one job I looked at and went "yeah". I have frozen up. I really really want to move to Brum. It's a lovely city

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[crocodilewings]

Whenever I feel profoundly unhappy with my life, I actively look for big red buttons to push, which will shake up my world in new and interesting ways. They haven't turned out badly yet. Making any decision is usually a better decision than not making any decision, because not making any decision is a decision in unto itself, and it's usually a bad decision. Decision, decision, decision.

I'm happy to provide you with any support you might need. What's this job you're interested in?

[miss_like]

It was at the brum children's hospital, but unfortunately I think its too late, since the closing date has passed. I don't know if I even want to stay in the NHS any more. I like secretarial work, I find it enjoyable and fulfilling. I like working for the NHS. I know some people dislike the feeling of being a little cog in a giant machine, but I love it. I am quite a mundane and boring person, really. I just want a job that I can do and then forget all about until I have to go back, ideally with people I don't hate. I don't want to work "voluntary" overtime ever again.

[crocodilewings]

What's your skillset? What are you most good at in your current job? What are you good at outside of your current job that you'd like to be able to do bring into your work?

Come on...let's brainstorm.

[miss_like]

skillset? I'm a quick, accurate typist, I've got a good telephone manner and I can deal quickly and efficiently with telephone queries. I have a working knowledge of Word, Powerpoint and Outlook, and a vague idea of Excel. I maintain a filing system, control the inpatient diary and the diary of non-patient appointments for two consultants. I take minutes. I draft letters to patients and other departments etc. I keep a record of holidays for my consultants.

I'm a secretary. It's all basic admin and organisational stuff, with a great big dolloping spoonful of audio/copy typing and medical terminology.

[autumnpsyche]

I understand the fear; fear that it won't come together, and fear that it will and it won't be what you're hoping for

[miss_like]

Thanks :) That does help, definitely. I'm just a naturally quite pessimistic person, and I tend to worry, so even a little thing can be blown out of all proportion. Something this massive and lifechanging has me completely...argh, can't even think of a word big enough to express my difficulties! I feel like I'm at the bottom of a big hill, at the top of which is a shining and golden thing, but I have to push my way through an avalanche of fear and worry and stress to get there, and its all uphill. Which is stupid, really, because it's not that big of a deal. The only thing keeping me here is my job, and I can find another of those, and hopefully one which isn't going to impact negatively on my mental health like this one.

I really really *really* want to do this. I'm just so scared of falling.

[autumnpsyche]

I know what you mean. I'm currently having a huge wibble over just learning to snowboard - something like moving house really gets to me. I haven't tried to move cities since I went away to Uni, and then I was so desperate to get out of my parents house I barely noticed (was fairly numb as a person back then too) but I'd panic too if I tried it now.

The fact that you haven't given up despite difficulties is pretty cool though, and it can be done.

Just to add that you could also try out Medicine-related departments of Universities. It uses the same kind of skills and your knowledge of medical terminology would give you an edge as usually people going for Uni jobs wouldn't know the terminology in advance. Did an uber quick search and there seem to be a couple below, though I didn't look at details:
https://atsv7.wcn.co.uk/search_engine/jobs.cgi

[autumnpsyche]

Ooops broke link. I think you have to get there from here: http://www.hr.bham.ac.uk/jobs/