i just need youth group to be fun tonite. i need to let go of all the weird fucked up thoughts in my head. i need to relax. i need to breath. i need to make my room mine at my papys. i need to relax. i need to be happy. i need i need. i need to shut the fuck up and stop whining.

i like making cds :)
DESPERADOOOOOOOOOO

see! im so dumb. i think that the bad can just STOP and the good can just START. just because a month ends. SORRY it doesnt work like that.
im a moron. im so angry and sad and i dont know why.

Theres a lot that i want to say, that i need to say. I promissed myself that 2003 would be a good year. 2002 was one of the worst years of my life. My brother got worse, by a large amount, in ways that im not allowed to express to anyone, he ran away, his lying got worse, my sister ran away, she does drugs, she doesnt talk to my mom, she lived w/ ( Read more... )

when you want it to come, it never comes. when you want it to end, it never ends.

i just need march to come and feburary to end. i need to be pretty and thin and happy.

i need my family to be ok.

i need to be able to express how i feel..but i cant.

ive been in the most awful mood for ever, and im sorry.

When you need a friend, its really nice to know you have one, or two or three...thankyou guys, thankyou a million :)

i will not let you bother me i willnot let you bother me i will not let you bother me i will not let you bother me ( Read more... )

i dont know what i want but i know that its not this but somewhere in my head i think that i do because i remember the goodness and i forget the badness. does that make sense. i miss you. i miss a lot of things. im sick of missing things. im sick of sounding like some tragic 16 year old. jesus. life is not good but i need to shut up and realize ( Read more... )

excitment

i need to learn not to have expectations. and not to care about you.