Even though we're barely talking right now, I'm in love with someone I doubt I'll ever have. Which sucks because obviously, I love the guy. And whether or not he's realised that yet is a complete mystery.

I've been watching Laguna Beach for the past two days and every time I see Stephen, I think of Matt. I'm really starting to miss how we used to be best friends, talking all night almost every night.

And I'm starting to think that we're not going to get back to that. Not because too much has changed but because of how I feel about him.
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Sometimes ( Read more... )

To be perfectly honest, I miss you. Every day since we ended things, I tried telling myself that you weren't right for me. And for a while, other people came into my life and they took my mind off of you. Briefly. I truly believe that I will never get over you entirely. No matter how much I deny it, you'll always be there somewhere. I'll always ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why I still think about you. Maybe some part of me thinks we have this small chance of making it work, like we can try just once more. The other part says I'm nuts. I know there is no possibility of us ever lasting for an extended amount of time. I'm tired of waiting for you to realise that I'm good for you. Even after everything, we ( Read more... )

I've been waiting for this moment for almost a month now. The second that boy comes back, everything feels so much better. I've been so down lately and with one little hello, he changes everything. I love how easy it is with him. We don't have to try so hard to be happy. It's just... there ( Read more... )

Dear Blaine Andrews,

First of all, I need to tell you that I love you. Because I feel like I've never said it as much as you deserve to hear it. We've been through so much in our two years together. And I wouldn't trade a single second that we've spent with each other. Those moments mean the world to me. I know I've made so many mistakes that you ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU, FUCK EVERYTHING WE HAD ( Read more... )

I swear, I have the most bizarre dreams. Alex was in the dream this time. Old crush on roleplay, FYI. And he lived down the hall from me. But I guess I was moving or something and apparently he had a crush on me too. Which was cool because I was always too chicken shit to say anything to him about my feelings. Anyway. We kissed, blah blah ( Read more... )

You can't call me and then have nothing to say. That's not how it works. So everything I didn't get a chance to say, I'm saying right here. And I would have said it before if I had been alone and able to talk without worrying about people listening in. So we really do need to finish that conversation.

First of all, if you're as sorry as you keep ( Read more... )

Why are you doing this to me? Stop telling me you're always going to have feelings for me. I've been fighting so hard to get where I am now.
And every time I'm happy or in a good place, you come around telling me things that you know I always want to hear. But I know I need to resist you. Because you're only going to hurt me again. You don't know ( Read more... )