Sometimes, as weird as it is....people just know what is going to happen. You just have that extra abnormal feeling. It's like your subconcious knows and is trying to SCREAM it out, but then your concious self just pushes it back. I'm mad at myself, because I pushed down that subconcious, trying to be all more mature or something like that....and ( Read more... )

what if your whole already? why do you have to have someone "complete" you. I have to say I am pretty happy with myself...but ill just see where life takes me..........

I don't know.... but I was in such a bummmer mood at exactly 10:03 last night. Talked to sarah for 3 hours on the tele and was a happy camper afterwards. Had many realizations....and realize my life is so weird. I want to be a kid still. but people don't want me to. like someone thought i was 22 on tues. I FLIPPED. too much soul searchin makes you ( Read more... )

I need to move out. I think I am to a breaking point. My brothers are so selfish it makes me sick. My parents are so worn down they don't have any fight left, only complaints. I shouldn't have to do some of things i do. School as much as i hate it, is a retreat I can't get enough of. I want to hitch hike to the mountains. I want to dwell in the ( Read more... )

OMG i had such a great day yesterday ( Read more... )

OK!!! A lot has happened that I must start DOCUMENTING ( Read more... )

I am soooooo disgusted with myself. I am soooooo juvenile. Ok so this is what happened: I just said bye to my aunt kristy and I am at my aunt lindas house right now. Who is neighbors with my childhood friend Kirsten and her little brother. I just ate a bunch of mexican-hence taco breath, I am running around in my pjs the flamingo ones err, have the ( Read more... )

Okay so yesterday i flew into htown and then went to my memaws house and ate a shrimp lunch. It was yummy. Then i went to my aunt lindas house where we had a catered dinner which was hugely amazing and yummy. There was so much food it could have served a wedding. Then I hung out with my amazing cousins then had a girls sleepover. and ate more food ( Read more... )

Its another day on my drug trip....thanks to a beautiful sinus infection. Yesterday I slept 20/24 hours. Woke up to eat. I can tell the medicine is working but for some reason it makes my head want to explode and the only remedy is sleep. My grandma is also in town. If i have to hear 'Margaret Adele!' one more time....i might pass out. Why is it ( Read more... )

had a dream last night that i got three Ipods. It was one of those dreams where i was like is this for reals? and then i woke up and then a couple of hours later i almost caught myself thinking oh you dont need a ipod i already have three. and then realized it was a dream. it was strange how rational i was in my dream...cause i remember thinking, ( Read more... )