A night at the Slave Auction - part 1

[missinara]

Please let me know if there are any spelling or grammar errors. I'd like to add this to my erotica portfolio once it is complete and names have been changed to protect the... er... innocent?! It gets a lot sexier (and a lot less whiny) in part 2.

“I don't know if I'm going to bid,” I pouted to anyone who would listen. “I'll just give my vouchers

Comments

[sexycelticlady]

Well written, thank you for sharing. It is interesting to see that a Domme was nervous about bidding. When I was auctioned off at the thanksgiving slave auction I was nervous that I wouldn't be bid on etc. Like you, the meat market thing was not something I enjoyed that much and even though I was in my sub role for the evening I was approached by several male subs wanting me to top them.

Thanks for the post, nice read. :)

[missinara]

I would say that you shouldn't have worried about not getting bid on (you are hot and awesome), but that's not really the point is it? That sort of stuff never helps you from getting nervous.

[sexycelticlady]

Yup, exactly. Few people realise that emotions are internal. They are not caused by external events/people or controlled by them, instead it relates to our own perception of events and people, some of which can be incorrect. We have a responsibility for our own emotions and it is entirely possible (but not easy) to change our perception to a more objective viewpoint.

I was nervous due to some level of insecurity that I have not yet eliminated from my thought process combined with the fact that it was a new experience and I had no control or choice over who bought me. On reflection, maybe it was more about the lack of choice than the bidding as such, but both were a factor.

[missinara]

Yes. I was told that at some auctions, a Domme can go on the block as well. I was excited about this till someone pointed out the lack of choice to me. I thought about how when I go to a party, I am lucky if I find 1-3 people I want to play with. I figured my odds were pretty bad then if I were to get auctioned off, lol.

I still don't know if I'd do it, but I'll say you are definitely braver than I am. ^_^

[breasts_lvr]

"Moments when I faced the unknown, and my first instinct would be to clam up and try to make myself invisible somewhere behind the crowd."

I have that same reaction as well....Good post though...;)

[missinara]

The important thing is that I did not give in to the impulse. I know you told me that sometimes you just don't know what to say when you feel like that. Like you did at the dinner table the other day.

Believe me, I have been there a million times. Dax showed me that becoming a good listener IS a way to engage and not clam up. Whenever you don't know what to say, just ask a question instead. Try to start a dialogue with the people you are with.

[socalsox]

and now for my next trick I will comment on YOUR post ;P

"Suddenly, I was that shy, nerd-____ all over again.

God does it freak me out sometimes how much you and I are alike! That nervousness still creeps up in me to and I'm really just now starting to wrestle out from under it.

I did wonder what to you so long to put in an opening bid! ;P

He DOES have a Han Solo smile! I never noticed... that's so damn cool!

he-he thanks for calling me "cool" ;D

I've got some more but I'll tell you in private.

Can't wait to read the next part!

Nerds unite!

[missinara]

Yeah. I find it pretty neat that we seem to be discovering a lot of similar traits or history.

And yes, of course you are cool.

And I replied to your message. You do a good job of making me fel mortified.

Re: Nerds unite!

[socalsox]

Hey it's what I do! :D

[seekssocaldomme]

Such a fantastic story. You captured perfectly what we all felt from our first event as compared to being a little more experienced :)