Time wounds all heels??

[missingkitsune]

I ended up not going to my mother’s memorial service after all.  The panic attacks won out.

It’s kind of a good thing. It’s snowing something horrible outside and I’m really not willing to risk my physical health along with my mental health. I did get to talk to my sis and surprisingly she understood.  Sometimes people can surprise you.

I still don’t

Comments

[daxzia]

Heyo, i just wanted to tell you not to feel bad at all cause you're not alone. My father passed in may and me and him were not close for years. it was unexpect and, at the time, i was going through so much that i had like three panic attacks due to work and personal issues before that happened. i just couldnt bring my self to expose myself to even more pressure that would have just made me explode so i didnt go either. i would like to think my dad understands but to be honest, i couldnt tell you cause we hadnt talked in years. on that note, im not going to allow myself to regret that decision because i had to do what i thought was best for ME. i just wanted you to know you are not alone in that choice and if you have anyone tell you that you will regret that, dont beleive them because you were doing what you needed to do to protect your already fragile self so stay strong and, to me, you did the right thing. come to peace with her on your own time and in your own way.

[missingkitsune]

Honestly I think I came to peace about it a long time ago. I was giving my self more stress about not feeling anything than actually feeling anything. *how dumb is that???*
Yeah It came down to the whole "I know I've got to do this for me and now give a damn what anyone else thinks" kind way of thinking.

BTW Hi there. *hugs*

[helliongoddess]

*Points up to Daxzia* Amen to what she said. I'm glad you stayed home, and relieved your sister was decent about it.

(And btw, *waves* hey! Dax! Great to see you, it's been a while! ♥ )

[missingkitsune]

Yeah me too. *wrote to you about it last night and was gonna call today but got caught up with the kid today*.
Sis really surprised the hell out of me on that.
I'll probably only get the paper stuff in the mail. I sure haven't seen anything yet.. but I didn't really expect it today anyway.

[daxzia]

(waves frantically) oh, hellion, its sooo good to see you again! (big group huggles with hellion and missy) it has been a while. But when I saw missy going through the same things as I did and feeling bad about them, I had to say something.

You just keep strong, missy and know that you are not the only one who understands and totally agrees with what you did. if i had went, i would have been more of an emotional mess than what i was and i would not have been able to have recovered as much as i have. and my sister didnt even tell me when the funeral was or a paper with my dad's obituary or anything. i was expecting some kind of snubbing but not like that. you just take care of yourself because, in the end, you are the only one who will. (big kisses and huggles to both missy and hellion)

[missingkitsune]

(squeezes dax) It's really good to see.
And the more days that pass the more I'm happy with my decision.