I think therfore I am!

[missinglink111]

I feel great lately. I am enjoying this weather and I am very mentally content, but at the same time I have some thoughts. I feel like I might be making many choices in my life that are straying me away from the original beliefs and choices that I had previously defined myself by. I usually have a good argument for the things I choose to do, but I

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On keeping it real [keep it real]

[hbjr7]

Nice post, it's cool to hear things about yourself and your perspective. I can understand--to a certain extent, what you mean regarding your true self etc. It is important to know who you are and stay true to your self and beliefs...I understand you are being flexible and trying to accomodate to everything in your life, but imo it is of utmost importance to stand up for what you believe in and never disregard your beliefs and what you stand for.

Haha I am not giving advice or a strong opinion of what is right, just stating what I feel is of utmost importance (to me) though I have gotten in trouble, caused problems, and created rockiness w/ppl and certain situaos. I like who you are as a person and respect you. It's not bad that you've had to dishonor your vow or go against your beliefs, it's not good, but your situaos are understandable...doesn't livejournal have spell check? ahaha jk

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[missinglink111]

on a side note, the beliefs I am talking about here are, well nothing crazy, if they were anything too moral I would never betray them. The beliefs I am talking about have more to do with my philosophy of life and life style, conformity etc. you know things that i specifically would think. like ask me to work an office job in a cubicle a few years back and I would be like hell no, but now if the money is right then i would because well i need that to get to my final goal. i just don't want to loose sight of that goal on the way. you know. nothing too serious but don't want to be stuck in the wrong job for too long you know. then there is the chance i could get the right job too. I guess thats the lottery that feel like I am in. job markets are interesting.

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[hbjr7]

I think you can do what you truly want to do and should take the risk. Try to go for both?...and see what one you get.

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[missinglink111]

well i always have my secret back up plan if all els fails :)but if i plan it right the line of work i will get into i should relatively enjoy (fingers crossed) if not i can correct that after my masters is completed but i need like 3 years work experience before i go for that so experience it is

[leelee1184]

wow jefe, that's real deep. ;) I think most of us can relate even if we're not in the exact same situation as u. Yeah, don't drift away just yet. I need to learn more martial arts moves...if any haha.

[cherryoflegend]

wow jeff that sums up a lot of feelings for me as well. sometimes i look back at when we would talk outside in the forest and wonder what that old me would say about the today me. i feel like i have given up a lot of those values i once had becuase ive had to grow up. i felt like this most recently when i watched the discovery channels planet earth. that made me remeber our vows never to get a desk job and to not ever work at a place we hate. it sucks how much things have changed and i really wish i could hold true to that but things have changed and not all of it is for the worse. i guess as we grow up we learn what is most important and what we are willing to give up for it

[missinglink111]

yup , i have adapted a bit as well, i just want to recall some of my roots, to remind me of some of the things i really love to do and think etc. as of now i don't do a lot of the things i used to love to do (art, drawing, painting, martial arts, training, flipping, gaming, reading etc) i plan on using some of my time when i am off of school to getting back to some of those things. i feel like i want to pick something i really like to do and master it to get back to the original drive that allowed me to accomplish many things.

[baname7]

You realize what is most important. But I have less of an excuse. I want to be free again. Just fuck it all and go. Coward....thats me. Too bad I couldn't care less about all this effort I put into school. If I didn't I'd be outa here. Wouldn't it be great.

[baname7]

That was to josh.

[baname7]

Ugh. You feel the same then huh?

I don't know what to do. I feel like I can totally switch what I am doing to accommodate my dreams. But I feel that Ive put too much into all this to do that. Maybe they will just have to manifest later in life like you said. It would be good to go back to our roots to refresh those feelings and dreams. That way, even if it wont happen for awhile, it will be refreshed and less "lost" ya know?

[missinglink111]

yessssssss absolutly

[anonymous]

It's cool to see u post something like this, I feel like I get to know u better. It's weird that I prob know the least about u than anybody else in the group yet I met u first, and u were the first person that I talked to ;-) Ironic I guess. I think its cool that u can let us know how u feel and all that good stuff so keep on writing. ^_^ I had a lot of fun this weekend and I hope that u did too. I feel like we need to hang out more Jeffrey cause u are amazing, and I want to get to know u better and better. I think that u and I have a lot of things in common and I want to know just how different we are. Hopefully we hang out a lot when u come back ^_^!!!

I posted just for u Peter Puetz. Ohh yeah ur mom rocks. ^_^

[emmanduran]

That was/is Manny!!!