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[missingx_xyou]

i miss him. i need him. i love him.

and i dont want to nemore. it hurts so badly. i feel like im dying more everyday. and i hate that feeling.

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[simply_amazingx]

if you don't want to, don't allow yourself to. i know you, you are strong. and you will get through this. just believe in yourself, like i do.

iloveyoumydarling.

[missingx_xyou]

well i do tho thats the hard part. becuz i need him. and i love him. and i want him. i cant just tell myself i dont need him or love him or want him. becuz i do. more than anything. more than ever. im not very strong at all actually. i cry myself to sleep at night. i just hide everything so much better than i ever had. and it kills me. i dont know how to believe in myself tho. i know i tell you that all the time *just believe in yourself* and i know i should take sum of my own advice. its just. i hate myself. so how could sumone believe in theirself if they hate themself. i dont know. im sorry. i just cant let go of him. i know i need too. but i dont want to. becuz i know i need him. and i love him. and oh how i miss him.

i love you!

[simply_amazingx]

dont hate you !! jessica !!! there is nothing to hate !! omg ! i love EVERYTHING about you. EVERY SINGLE THING ! you are amazing jessica. the most amazing ive ever seen anyone be. to get through what you've been through. and you wanna give up NOW?! its like all your hard work was for nothing. dont let it be like that. i love you hunny. and i hate seeing you like this. i really do. dflkdajsflksa.

iloveyou.

[missingx_xyou]

i dont know how to not hate myself. i know you see everything good about me even thru the bad. but i cant seem to get thru the bad. everything i see is good. i never help anyone. ever. i hurt people like no other. i keep things from people. i ruin peoples lives. nobody wants to be with me. nobody wants to be my friend. nobody likes talkin to me. the person who is in love with me who once wanted to marry me, he doesnt even care nemore. becuz i have down everything i have wrote in here to HIM and him alone. how could i not hate sumone who does that? you would. mike would. and i dont wanna give up for the same fact u had said. all my hard work for nothing? i try. i try my hardest to not give up. but lately thats all i know how to do. becuz ive tried everything else. and well. it didnt work. idk.

iloveyou!