Did You Ever.

[mission_flyer]

It's an amazing thing the internet.

Warning this is long, windy, whiny, twisty, dark and a bit emo...but every bit as important.

Today, is the first of a series of very long long days. I am attempting to reconnect with some older friends, people who I am both trying to find out why I stopped talking to people, and what made them my friends in the

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[topleka]

Wow, it's been awhile since we've talked. This is largely my fault, as I don't spend much time on instant messengers, and my LJ posts are often trite comments on anime related news.

I like you, though. I actually remember who you are, which is more than I can say for a lot of names on my friends list and my IM contacts. You might not remember, but you've given me words of encouragement in the past, and that helped more than you probably realize. We may not ever step past internet friends, but that doesn't mean I don't want to know what's on your mind. If you do want to talk, I'm willing. You're definitely someone who I'd like to know better.

[mission_flyer]

I have?

Apparantly I do that more than I know, which is good because maybe I should give myself a little more credit than I do. One of the unfortunate problems of being a bit low in the self-esteem department to say the least.

Send me an e-mail (penguinscanfly-at-gmail.com) sometime, or a chat, or if you come to Vancouver, Canada come visit. We'll do dim-sum.

[fukkatsu]

I feel that way a lot with people on the internet. Maybe it is because I myself keep everyone at a distance or maybe I am someone that people feel they have to keep at a distance. I wish I could figure that one out because I would like a nice small but awesome group of internet friends that I can be with and know that I truly matter in their lives...

I myself don't like the surface chatter. I like conversations where both parties are comfortable enough with each other to really have something to say.

[elf_shadow]

I miss chatting with you. It's been a long time. You're growing up and discovering who you are, and who you want to be. Now I'm saying that in a very general way, because you may not feel any growth right now. But whenever I read your posts (few as they may be) I can see the personal and emotional growth you are experiencing.

You're a great guy, and although I don't know you well, you've been a wonderful person to talk to. Additionally, I do understand what you mean about relationships and such. I spend much more time offline than online so almost all of my "internet friends" are truly acquaintances that I mesh well with, you know?

Where have the years gone, Josh? I remember when you were still 18, and now *I'm* 18. Heh. I'd still like to get to know you better, so if you ever want to chat you can always e-mail me: kmikiva@gmail.com and I will always respond.

Best of luck in all your endeavours. I hope that things are picking up and still flying high for you.

~Miki