I really have become very boring...all I do is sit at home by myself. Even when I have off of work I cant strike up the nerve to call anyone..I feel like if I get someone to drive all the way over to see me that I have to entertain them to my utmost ability.and honestly I cant do it. Ive become so awkward around people that were once so easy to ( Read more... )

Ive become such a solitary individual lately. I feel like Im a boring person now. I dont do much. I work and go home ( Read more... )

so I think Im doing fairly well this month. Ive been working my butt off and trying to be more social. ive made a good chunk of money compared to how ccf has been lately too. I am however working christmas eve and the days following christmas which Im not looking forward too. I have nothing else to do though since my family is going to new york to ( Read more... )

so I have yet to make more than 40 dollars in my 3 shifts a week here at cheesecake factory. Ive been trying to pick up shifts but its nearly impossible. I have less than 80 dollars right now and Im trying to figure out how the hell im supposed to pay rent this month..maybe Ill just get evicted. itll probably make things easier for me and give me ( Read more... )

So I found out my exboyfriend chris who I dated for 2 years is dating MK. not that many people will understand or care. Im not jealous or bothered by it to be quite honest..just surprised and happy for them. I think theyll make a good couple and be together for a while ( Read more... )

tonight was a lot of fun surprisingly. I thought I was going to have a horrible night because I didnt have a costume ready at all and I had a massive headache today. My first headache in years. went to carnevil with kenni for like 15 minutes,bailed out and then went to a party in noda with amanda and chelsea. 2/3 of the not likelys were there and ( Read more... )

god I suck. I can't believe that he ran away. or that he could have pulled away from me with that long ass leash. Im such an asshole. damnit.

this sucks.

this weekend was fun. It was nice to get away from charlotte and do something for once. NOFX was amazing of course and I had a great time with close friends.

I have this feeling that some people are distancing themselves from me though and I dont know why. I feel like I havent been myself lately.

yeahhhh

last night I got super depressed. I feel as if I have no close friends anymore or friendships with meaning. noone calls me anymore or invites me out other than chanty and a few others. I feel antisocial and unhappy ( Read more... )

I feel really depressed right now. I feel like noone gives a damn about me. I have no friends.I can't even articulate my emotions. I just wish I could stop crying.