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4th of July

What in the actual fuck.

The truth shall set you free really does mean what it says. The truth came out finally and while I'm left really angry and deeply hurt, that was all I needed to break the bond. But now I have questions that will never be answered and maybe they shouldn't ever be? I'm too angry to write about it. I'll do it later.

Why am I not ( Read more... )

Title sounds weird but I'll keep it. Been assigned to Fiona and so far, it's been good to me other than it's slightly far from where I want to be for the bus. I'd rather not take Tripshot but I think this may be the route I need to go so I don't get home at almost 8 every night. I probably can catch it at Fiona and see if they'll just drop me off ( Read more... )

I got my desk anchoring assignment. Back to Fiona, sans William which is 10/10 I really liked that building. I was liked there.

Yesterday was a bit overwhelming, I had a mild panic/anxiety attack and had a 10 minute weep in a conference room on my lunch. I don't even know why I had the cry but it happened. Hard to say if it's just all the changes ( Read more... )

For a while, it was looking promising. Heard from Kevin, even got invited to his house of course for nefarious reasons which I felt were a bit nefarious but knowing me, I would have gone anyway.
I asked him what prompted the invite and the sudden talking and he elaborated it was for selfish reasons. We split.

It's unfortunate, he's a nice guy. I know ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how I'm feeling for today. I feel like I made some progress but none at all. Things to look forward to for this weekend but not the things I want. I'm hoping now that the numbers for dinner are smaller it'll be a good time. Jen will stay the whole night since there's less people. I'll do my shopping tonight, collect my ingredients and ( Read more... )

Well... Kevin actually called me, so that was nice. He mostly talked which was also nice even if I tried to add in my own things and he just kept talking. It's fine. He was telling me about his house projects and how he needs to find something to do to keep himself away from doing projects and I suggested he could always take me on a date to which ( Read more... )

Working in Nitro N was delightfully busy. I hardly had any idle time. Unfortunately time went by extremely slowly and I spent a lot of time on hold with badging. Regardless, I felt like I did a lot of things which felt great. Working with Ariam was a lot of fun, she and I got along very well. It's hard to say if I knew more things than she did ( Read more... )

Here I was excited to actually get to talk to Kevin today, he was semi-responsive to texts though it really wasn't happening in the middle of the day. My bus was too full for me to be like, okay I'll call him but I guess it was for the best since he was wanting to be a loner.

Getting drunk, playing WoW, watching movies and passing out were on his ( Read more... )

The weekend was arduous and I got almost nothing done for it outside of helping Jen move which took up a lot more of the day than I thought, though that did include going to pho afterward and hanging out a little while we recovered. We all decided to have a dinner and game night and I'll be doing the cooking and Jesse, Jen's brother will assist. He ( Read more... )