People make mistakes, and in the end it all works out. Or does it? It doesn't matter, cause in the mean time the feeling you get isn't pleasant ( Read more... )

Man oh man, last night couldn't have been any better. Had fun at the game...sort of...I just kept on looking back and talking to my friends in band and laughing...it was great. Then went to Ci Ci's with all my seniors afterwards. It was probably the most fun time I've ever had at Ci Ci's! Even though I was the main target for everyone to pick on. ( Read more... )

Wow, my status hasn't been consistant in the past month. I haven't had a decent relationship with anyone. That's including everyone, my friends, my family, and those significant others. I've been stressing too much over things that shouldn't matter to me. But I'm glad everything is starting to clear up. I don't want live a dramatic life. That's all ( Read more... )

Pro:Abercrombie offered me a job!
Con:I'm not 17! :(
Pro:The job offer made my day and made me feel pretty!

Covering up your real feelings is hard. I can't do it anymore, so I gave up. It's done with. I don't know anymore so for the first time I'm giving up on someone. Theres no point when I'm the only one trying. So as I'm letting things go, my days are slowly but gradually getting better. My only problem...I'm getting sick. It's scary, I think I need ( Read more... )

I was happy while the day lasted...then got rejected by Jonah. My heart sank when he told me to close the door. I wish I knew what was going on. I wish I could be a better person at this. I hate thinking that I'm not "good enough" for him...(sometimes). I guess I really need to get over it. It's not something I need to be worring about at this ( Read more... )

Yesterday couldn't have been any better. Probably one of the best beach days ever. Jonah and Randy came to pick me up to head out to the beach yesterday afternoon. In short terms; the best day of my life. No one needs to know why, it's no ones business. It was great fun. A memory that keeps running through my head ( Read more... )

*Sighs*
I don't know anymore. I don't know anything. I feel like it's all a one sided thing(I kinda now know how a certain someone feels). I hate how he never tells me anything and then I found out what he's really thinking from someone else. I don't understand why he just can't confront to me. It's frustrating. It's like he doesn't want me to know ( Read more... )

So the day wasn't as bad as I assumed it was going to be. Instead there was so much more warmth in the day then I ever thought would be. I'm glad I didn't have to fake anything. Basicly I thought I would still be depressed and down from that one night. But it all changed when I saw Jonah that morning. Yeah I'm not going to say much about him, only ( Read more... )

So it's Labor day weekend and what do I do? Spend it at the mall with Ray, it was ok, I didn't really want to go anyway...my rents were all "get ready cause we're dropping you off at the mall..." So it's like I have no choice...I saw Eddie working, that was nice. Hmm and well we just walked around doing nothing...it was completely pointless ( Read more... )