DUH!

So......I had an epiphany of sorts tonight.

I had an awful day. Truly awful. And then this....wow. An ounce of hope within me. An idea that has sparked an interest in life again.

Ryan and I have started talking again. Within the last week or so. Don't know if in the long run this is good or bad. But.......I don't know what it is about him but ( Read more... )

Today, T.J, who is four and my sweetheart out of all of the kids, was so incredibly excited when he came home from wrestling and he told me all about it. It was "pizza night". On Thursdays the whole team and their families go out for pizza at the same pizza place, and if T.J's been good (along with his older siblings) he gets a few ( Read more... )

Medication. I haven't really noticed much of a difference except for the fact that there were two times in the past few days that I wanted to cry but I just....couldn't.

Yay for being numb!

FUCK YOU ALL! hahahahaha! I feel a little more bold too, I guess. I can say what I want to and I don't give a shit about the repercussions. Okay, not really. Or ( Read more... )

The only thing I have to be thankful for, in the end, is that I got laid regularly.

So....thanks.

Wish it made sense.
But it doesn't.
No matter how may ways I've tried to look at it in the hope that I could still see him in a positive light.
But at this point, it's just not possible.
So now I can only wish that he ends up feeling the same...
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in relation to that last entry.....

I received this message from Crazy Ryan today:

" so im gonna keep callin an buggin you till you come around to the fact that you need 2 come see me or till u just want to kill me and you come do so either way we will hangout soon ;)"

What's with the winky face?! I swear I reciprocate NO flirting whatsoever with this ( Read more... )

So...there's this guy named, Ryan, (not the one I used to date) who I became "friends" with back in September/October through Myspace. We ended up meeting after only about a week or two of writing and ummm...yeah....bad idea. Most other people I've met through this place I had been writing back and forth with for atleast a month or more. Those ( Read more... )

What is really interesting is that I was offered a continuance. Higher income. Assistance in finding a car would become more of an interest to them. I could live-out. But I don't think really want to do this for this family anymore...I've done my time here, I think.

Fate is always doing its job, right? Things happen for a reason even if those reason ( Read more... )

Three boxes packed full and you know what...things aren't looking too bad. I'm giving/throwing away a lot of stuff and my clothes seem to have condensed nicely. I am hoping that what is left of my clothes in my closet will be able to squish into my luggage for the plane.

Though luggage is something that I still need to acquire. I am most likely ( Read more... )

I returned a couple of things today that I didn't want to return. They had a destination in mind but I could not obtain a latitude or longitude. It was really sad returning them. I didn't want to. Regardless of everything I still wanted to send these things on their way.....

Oh well.

Bought some boxes today. It's going to be so fucking expensive ( Read more... )

This house that I live in has mice and the people that I work for had the Orken man come and, since there are so many children, instead of snap traps they put down these ultra sticky pads with a piece of candy or dog food in the center.

Well, since the family is out of town...I just came across two of the pads and lo and behold there was a mouse on ( Read more... )