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Wow.. that was overwhelming.. and I really feel like I might need a pep talk after that, but being home alone with a napping baby, that's a little complicated... so a self pep-talk... GO!!

Why do I compare myself to her? Did we create that on ourselves.. is it just me? Did someone create it for us and we just picked up and ran?? Am I jealous? ( Read more... )

I really love being around people who confirm my choices.. who are going through the same things as me and make me feel good about my effort.. that I'm not doing nearly as bad a job as I sometimes think. I do feel confident in my decisions, I do feel like I am making the best decisions I can... the best choices.. as I see fit. But it's also nice ( Read more... )

Well I've been working like a crazy person lately.. which allows me to read a lot, but leaves my knitting a bit neglected. It also seems to cause me to become super inspired over sewing things, but of course with out the time to act on any of it... oh well. Beyond working I am planning a trip to L.A. and I haven't heard back from the people I ( Read more... )

A. I don't know how to argue/discuss.. I've never been taught and I live with the perpetual fear that if we argue then the love is gone, I've always had this fear, don't know if I can outgrow it ( Read more... )

I feel it lurking over my shoulder... the depression and the dread.. the disappointment. Not that I'm old or something, cause I don't feel old. Just the fact that the day is really important to me, and no one else. I suppose it's like that for everyone, I don't know, I've only ever been me... but every year all I want to do is cancel it. ( Read more... )

I love seeing other people's avatars and I always think they capture themselves great.. I feel like I fail.. like I need a mirror close by cause I don't know what I look like, isn't that insane? Well this is my attempt.. tell me what you think I messed up.

SPOILER!!!!! consider yourself warned. though I will code and not mention anything really specific ( Read more... )

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What a tough day.. a tough day that ended with no answers. just more questions to fill my head.

What happened to that person who cuddled me out of a bad day sooo long ago?